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New yea resolutions until i can think of someone :D

2012-01-08T06:00:00.000-08:00

The new year resolutions

1. Set God as the center of everything, go even further in my relationship with Him till we are more than inseperable

2. Join a local worship and leadership team

3. Get on the top of dean's list

4. Find a woman who fears the Lord

5. Set up a prayer team on campus

6. Bring forth Kingdom culture into my community

7. Go for radcon and mission trip

8. Learn how to surf

9. Get an eight pack

10. Start cooking a 5 course meal

11. Get a God-given part time job

12. Record an album

13. Do not procrastinate or hesitate to do the Lord's Will

14. Study the old testament through my apologetic study bible

15. Be pleased with my dad

Negative moments

2011-11-28T08:49:00.000-08:00

Xup man.
I see that its better to be alone
Hidden within the oceans
Amongst the islands
Till i find one who can understands me, O Lord
I will hide my heart

My help i give
My life i shall
But my heart i'll not
Never shall it be bled by another
Never again will any see it but the Lord
Till the day i find one whose worthy
My heart be hid and emotions be led

I will lead my heart while it is hidden
My burdens shall be shared with Lord
For there is none on earth i find able to save me nor help me from my sorrow
Lord, Thy Will be done, not mine.
Take control for i am tired....

What it means to be an evangelist

2011-02-13T06:58:00.000-08:00

Xup man, i cant wait to get started on this
What It Means To Be An Evangelist

Some say an evangelist is one who spreads the Word of God. True
Some say an evangelist is just preaching the gospel. True too
Others say an evangelist is one who brings people to church for service. True to a certain extent

In a nut shell, an evangelist is one who shows who God is to others

There is the direct type which is sharing the Gospel and 5 truths with them
There is the indirect type, planting the seed and Word of God by living righteously and showing love to them

There are some who say that one type is evangelism and others the other
However evangelism is a mixture of both.
One cannot live without the other.

Above all, one must show love. And i dont mean the romantic kind.
I mean, one must show the love of God to people at all times. Even when one doesnt feel like it. We are called to show a higher standard. We are called to be more than conquerors, meaning that even in bad times we do not lose. We are still victorious because God has won the victory and we got to act our heritage in Christ.

I mean, come on. We are Christians for crying out loud. We are God's adopted children who have been cleansed from sin and have a relationship with God. Our war over doing right and wrong is already won because on Jesus and we have to act like it. We are called to be the head and not the tail. Thus we are called to be the higher calling.
We are called to show love even when we dont want to.
That is our higher calling.

We got to start behaving victoriously because we are Children of God. Thus means
1. No complaining ( as much i must admit like to do)
2. Start loving our enemies ( another that i dont really like to do)
3. Being exceptional and doing our best in all that we do with God ( something i like to do at times)

I must admit that most of the things are also things i struggle with, but thank God that the standard is not me, if not its a sub-standard. The standard is God's Standard and that is what we are called to live.

Our job as evangelists is to bring love in people's hearts. Doing things that love leads us to do.
We got stop thinking others as just strangers and behave as if they are not part of us. They are flesh and blood too. And if we struggled and hurt before, so do they. Even more when they dont have Jesus to help them.

You know, sometimes we are the only light to them to show them what God's Love is. And most of the times we dont do it. We got to start getting up and start showing love.
Like when was the last time you went to your peers and asked them whether they need help and you're willingly to do it for free.
When was the last time to when to your neighbour's house as say i wanna help you clean your house for free. And if they ask why, say because Jesus loves you.
When do we actually start going out to do selfless things
Come on man. We are Christians. Christ in us

Also as evangelists, we are called to speak with encouraging words to them
Many a times, i heard many hurtful truths, hurtful words, discouraging things from people. In Singapore, to hear praise is like to see cows jumping over the moon. Never happens
Everything has an ulterior motive behinds it.
Come on, love is gentle. And if Love is also Truth, Hurtful truth or loving lies are ironies man.
No one wants to hear about God if what you say or what you live by is not encouraging and positive. Who wants to hear messages that condemns you. Who would ever listen to something that insults you
No, the gospel was never written to hurt or insult but to shed light. Challenge and annoy, i must say sometimes, but to harm you, never. Its often we as Christians who either live an unholy life filled with vulgarities or truancy or deception and all sorts of evil, OR the words we used to bring across the gospel is insulting to others.

You know before i was a Christian, i always heard other Christians talk about Jesus. It made me hate them, Jesus and Christianity. It wasnt until i decided to check out the Bible itself. And boy, what a revelation it was. The jesus that those Christians i met, spoke about was not the same as the Jesus in the Bible. Dudes and dudettes, if you dislike Christianity because of some Christian who brought it across wrongly, im sorry for that ( if its me, im even more sorry). But i challenge you, read the Bible before you make a decision, the gospels part about Jesus or meet with other Christians to bring across the gospel and make comparisons. Because, the God i know, trust and believe in, is the God of Love.

And yes, there is also the direct part of being an evangelist which many people still fail to do.
Introduce the Gospel to them. I dont mean just going up to people as say, do you want to hear about the gospel?.
Dudes and dudettes, once again i ask you. How do you introduce something you like, be it a game or movie or music and so on. I bet you dont just say do you want to right? You incalculate into your conversation and bring it up when you want to. You craft your conversation and introduce it at the right time. And i say you need wisdom in this. There are times where you should not introduce it immediately into the conversation and wait for the next one and there are times to do it. I say carpe diem to this man

And thus, the last thing about evangelists. Evangelists are messengers of God. They talk about God to others be it the 5 truths, bible verses or show it with their life. I tell you the methods are endless but the most important as stated is God. You must have God with you at all times. To lead you and guide you. No God = failed work or wrong evangelism

Thus I end, i will put up the bible verse to back it up tomorrow as in my country, its quite late now.

Later............

What it means part 1

2011-02-07T05:49:00.000-08:00

Xup man, lets start
Normally we always have a question in our hearts, what does it mean to be a pastor, a evangelist, a healer, a worker of miracles, a prophet.
Well here are my insights and truths that i have found

For the first we shall start with a pastor.
Many a times, i question myself. What is a pastor suppose to do. What does it mean by pastors in the new testament as stated in Ephesians 4:11

Ephesians 4:10-13 ( NIV )
So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers, ¹² to equip his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up ¹³ until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
Ephesians 4:10-13

Ephesians 4:10-13 ( Amplified Bible )
And His gifts were [varied; He Himself appointed and gave men to us] some to be apostles (special messengers), some prophets (inspired preachers and expounders), some evangelists (preachers of the Gospel, traveling missionaries), some pastors (shepherds of His flock) and teachers.

¹²His intention was the perfecting and the full equipping of the saints (His consecrated people), [that they should do] the work of ministering toward building up Christ's body (the church),

¹³[That it might develop] until we all attain oneness in the faith and in the comprehension of the [^a]">[a]full and accurate] knowledge of the Son of God, that [we might arrive] at really mature manhood (the completeness of personality which is nothing less than the standard height of Christ's own perfection), the measure of the stature of the fullness of the Christ and the completeness found in Him.

Ephesians 4:10-13

According to the dictionary, a pastor is defined as

1. a minister or priest in charge of a church. ( ok...maybe )

2. a person having spiritual care of a number of persons. ( in a shortened sense yes)

Yet according to the latin origin, pastor is referred to a person who is a feeder or a shepherd, which is reinforced in the Amplified Bible.

So i say to ye that a pastor is as what is stated a shepherd of the people. In modern day term, i would say, an overseer. A person who watches and cares for the people which does not literally translate to doing everything alone

Take for examples the pastors of the past such as Moses who was not only a prophet to the Israelites but also a shepherd to them.

For pastor does not naturally mean just a person in full time ministry although it is usually the case since the burdens are so heavy.

1. A pastor is also an overseer, dealing with the general administration and planning but also to the cases which the leaders he has delegated, cannot handle.
- A pastor is one who is required to see the general picture of the church as well as plan the general direction and the specific process to get there.
- Before such, one normally thinks that the pastor's job is to just prepare sermons for one day of the week and poof, he slacks the rest of them
No, such a simple ideology is just an illusion.
A pastor is also required to deal with the handling of troublesome cases that are even out of the delegated leader's reach. Which i might add, is also very tough to deal with

Besides that, upon the administration part. Even though, it may not be just the pastor handling it alone, it is still his job to see that little things such as attendance, guest speakers arriving on time and cared for, finance are dealt with accordingly, the direction they are headed is according to what the Lord wants, newcomers are taken care of, the progress of each individual as well dealing with each question that the younger leaders may not be able to solve.
Such is what should part of the knowledge within a pastor should consist about

Continuing on,
2. A pastor is also supposed to inspire, motivate and grow young leaders or to put it better, the people under him.

- Its not just the pastor's job to run everything smoothly.
Delegation and leadership go hand in hand. Especially when taking care of large groups of people. A pastor needs to be able to set the example of not just being up there but to be human yet choose to live towards a higher calling. He is one that sets the standard of the church and its people. For a the people's growth is what the leader makes of it. And i tell you, its not easy to pastor. Taking a look at the lives of pastoral friends as well as those that i know, what they are doing is tough, not just during the good times but even tougher during the bad.

When shepherding the people, one must understand the generation and the culture that they live in yet go against the wrong values that are part of the current culture.
Culture is not eternal but the values we choose to make it is, according to the choice of the individual. That is why it is important for a pastor to inspire and challenge the people they are given charge of. So that the church that both the pastor and the people build is not one that represents the world but one that represents God and Kingdom culture.

3. Lastly, another role of the pastor is correct and protect his people from wrong influences as well from those who try to destroy them.

In this day and age, against the people of God, the enemies are large.
There are people in workplaces, schools, families, friends, organisations and much more that persecute them. There also many mediums that try to invoke and destroy good values, dreams and even hopes that God has placed within our hearts.
We should take a more active role in showing love, especially God's love by standing by those who are hurt and those who attacked, that they may fall.
Its the pastor's job to encourage and bring hope and build up truth within us through the Word of God, so that we may be strengthened against such attacks and during hard times we do not fall due to the lack of faith and the lack of being equipped.

To the people, this is why it is also very important to listen carefully to sermons, because each pastor, God has given a Word for that day. And though we may not be able to understand how to apply it immediately, it serves as our foundation and eqiupment as we fight against those who come against us and try to break us down.

Besides the verbal aspects, as pastors, we should also help in the physical aspects, being active within ministries as well standing with the people when they require help.
By doing so, it represents the protective aspect of a shepherd.

Thus as i come to close
I bid thee farewell
May the information imparted be of use
As its been a few days, i may have missed out certain stuff
To the appropriate teachers and audiences, may your comments to this be as constructive as it should be
For now i say to thee

Later........

Weekly update

2011-01-23T07:19:00.000-08:00

Xup man, this week has been quite an exciting but tiring week
I dont know how many times i faced trials and struggled countlessly
It seems that i have no end to the troubles that plague me
While im glad i have much responsibilities, i am sad that i have no end to it
When will my holiday be?
My sleep gives me no rest
There is peace in me through troubled storms and i wish the winds and waves to cease
I shall start my story

Monday and tuesday were OT days
Although i know people go through more but i doubt i get and similar rewards from OT unlike them. Army is tough and im struggling to do the right things
I sometimes think that im falling away cause i dont seem to be growing at all
All the self control and complaining. What kind of Christian am i?
I dont have discipleship nor do i have encouragement
My back is full of holes that people think im a porcupine with a needles in reverse
And my needles are not just from backstabbing but other struggles and conflicts of the people around me
I know God has called me out to the center stage and i cant deny it cause it is the way He made me. But also being in the spotlight means i am an open target to be shot every moment. Some people get it daily, yet i have no rest
I am either fighting, planning, complaining, blessing and acting in God's Will. Rest and rejuvenation doesnt seem to fit into my schedule
The cries of people have no end, even if i limit it to a small group, their troubles never end, giving me unending responsibilities
I am overworked and i need help
(btw overwork differs from people tolerancea and endurance levels)
Mine currrently due to being used daily is quite short now.
I say HELP GOD!

Lifegroup was awesome though i came unprepared
I am glad i brought gary cause this is what he needs
Acceptance and belonging
As a church i believe that we are suppose to be a place where there is no judging of people but acceptance of who they are and encouraging them to live a life and life to the fullest
As for myself i still struggle with this as my past experience tells me so
But i will say for this, i will strive on to accept people regardless of what may happen and regardless of how many times i fail

Last 4 days i've been having frequent nosebleeds. Its quite bad as im feeling lethargic and dizzy. Did i lose too much blood? Im going to see the doctor tomorrow for advice. Not cool man
Besides that, went to visit yuxian grandmother. Im glad i went cause he needs support and i believe that all Christians, as representatives of Jesus Christ, we should be there for him. God, i know yuxian is going through a tough time and i want You to help him. I obeyed your commands and this is the result so i did my part, now do Yours. Make the miracle happen. Protect yuxian and his family. and if you call me, i will go and be there for him, if not i will go anyway.
Its sad i didnt get as close to yuxian for him to trust me, its one of my regrets if you ask me
You know everywhere i go, its seems people look at me, believing that i have something good for them. I think they are seeing You Lord in me, but i sorry for the times that i was too cowardly to do something about it.

Recently, i have also gone to see kakak and the kids. Taking care of them is hard but fun, Im glad i went this week. The kids managed to learn one thing which is that the Lord is their Helper so they will not be afraid. Hebrews 13:6. Cool stuff
Preparing stuff for them. Very cool

Today, i went for a family gathering at both sides. Im glad i went cause it seems that they really need You Lord. I thank You for the eyes You've given me to pierce through the heart and soul to see everyone for who they truly are and what they truly need. God, its hard but i thank You. I thank You i could impact them, the kids, my cousins, my uncles and aunties. Though i have reservations and hesitations about what You want me to do and what You have in stored for me.

I choose to look forward in advance to see and grow in You
Jesus, Father, Lord, i thank You

(especially that finally PD is finally free to watch the movie materials i have prepared for him and the church. Yay.)

Later..................

Add the B to the J and we have a team. Hallelujah

2011-01-16T04:21:00.000-08:00

Xup yo people, the B-man is back from my long journey of sleep
Just watched To Save a Life movie
And that was a total rocker.
We're gonna move in big things now man
Check it out.
1. Impact lifegroup
2. Impact church
3. Impact Singapore
4. Impact the world

Qn. Impact army?
Unfortunately i want to say no but the big Boss wants me to. Sooo........... i think i'll say yes
I dont really like army, i dont like the culture, i dont like the evil jokes people are doing that tears everybody down. I dont like the politics of backstabbing and having masks and favourtism.

I dont wanna be like the world that seeks and kills and destroys like the devil
I dont wanna lead a life that is just fine
I wanna lead an awesome life that says PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!! AND ROCK ON JESUS
Soooo, im gonna be who i am called to be
I AM GONNA BE BRYAN, the MOST AWESOME RADICAL CHRISTIAN EVER IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD. IM GONNA BE A JESUS FREAK AND REACH THE LOST AND HURTING
I AM GONNA USE MY GIFTS AND SKILLS THE WAY GOD WANTED ME TO
I AM GONNA BE A IMPACTER FOR CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There's too many people hurting out there to keep me silent anymore
There's too much people searching for love and no one to show it to them
Well, if there is no one, there at least will be me. a Jesus warrior

The Fire is back!!!!!!!!

(btw i got 98% for my FTE. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Later..........

Fire Forecasts

2011-01-09T05:48:00.000-08:00

Xup man
I tell its not easy being a Christian man
Its like the hardest job ever. And Lord i know You keep telling me to press on
Its hard, and not just that its totally tiring.
What are the people around me you placed for?
What have they done but puncture my back?
Even after all the efforts and cooperation they still have not evolved further
Where is the growth. I feel so depressed and sad sometimes you know
I feel like giving up but i thank You that have not given me a spirit that breaks under pressure
but a Spirit that presses on and refines itself under trials and tribulations
You have made me to grow deeper in You andi thank You
For You are my Encourager, You are my Strength
You are the reason i press on through these storms and winds
And though the mountains and waves they pile high against me
In the Name of Jesus i will break them and silence them for good

For You have called me to heal the brokenhearted, free the captives, save the lost, lead the blind, heal the sick, be the father to the orphans, to be an example to the rest.
And that encourages me to press on
You know Lord, i wish sometimes You would place a friend or give me a partner to share my joy and trials with
And i dont mean acquaintances or people i known for a long time when i mean friend but in my type of definition
Friend is comrade for life
Lord i still want a mentor, i know you given me kong sheng and kenneth
But kong sheng has his stuff and is always too busy, kenneth got his army
Even though i can be accountable to them, i still cant trust them as much as i would want to
Lord this is my cry with the world as the witnesses
Give me a teacher, a partner, a love and an encourager
That i may continue the race relentlessly
I already have many running beside me and many running behind me
But i want someone to look up to, to mentor me and teach me new stuff that i may miss out and be accountable to me as i am to him/her

You know Lord, the world seems so strange that i find myself a stranger. I dont belong to the gossips, the soccerfans, the arrogant, the gamers, the geeks, the elite, the outcasts, the middleclass, the silverspooners, the poor. Each of their personas and attitudes are not similar to mine. Yet in songs created by those who love you, i find kinship with that worship
Lord, its seems funny and weird but cool at the same time
I dont really know how to put it in words but i'll do my best

This year will be the year of explosion
Last year was revivial and it was cool
Honestly i didnt think pastor matt was a cool person, i always thought he was a stuck up person who hangs out with those elite and i still have that impression but i think he does take time to fit with the poor too.
Lord, i still dont get the favoritism part you stated in
James 2:1-8
My dear brothers and sisters,^i]">[i] how can you claim to have faith in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ if you favor some people over others?

² For example, suppose someone comes into your meeting^j]">[j] dressed in fancy clothes and expensive jewelry, and another comes in who is poor and dressed in dirty clothes. ³ If you give special attention and a good seat to the rich person, but you say to the poor one, “You can stand over there, or else sit on the floor”—well, ⁴ doesn’t this discrimination show that your judgments are guided by evil motives?

⁵ Listen to me, dear brothers and sisters. Hasn’t God chosen the poor in this world to be rich in faith? Aren’t they the ones who will inherit the Kingdom he promised to those who love him? ⁶ But you dishonor the poor! Isn’t it the rich who oppress you and drag you into court? ⁷ Aren’t they the ones who slander Jesus Christ, whose noble name^k]">[k] you bear?

⁸ Yes indeed, it is good when you obey the royal law as found in the Scriptures: “Love your neighbor as yourself.”^l]">[l] ⁹ But if you favor some people over others, you are committing a sin. You are guilty of breaking the law.

James 2:1-8

I dont get it to whom you are referring to, cause honestly there are people i dont favour at all and there are those that i would shower much love upon and those i would shower nothing but dislike. If it refers to favouritism as whole then im just as guilty of being one of those. Cause its hard to love everyone equally. But if its just the rich over the poor then i am innocent cause mine is vicey versa. or it would be those who are needy over those who greedy/evil

You know, i wonder how many people actually appreciate the stuff i've done. Cause its like one second everyone's all happy and praising the next minute, would be blades getting pierced through my back.

You know how it feels to be backstabbed, abandoned, hurt and persecuted Lord. You know what it feels to be poor and outcasted without a friend in the world. You know how it feels

So i cry out to You for help, for You are not One who sympathises with me. You empathise with me and correct me with love. You do not shove truth without love but You reveal the truth to me with love. You do not hurt but You cut off the ungodly stuff without sharp precision for my sake. You heal me Lord, You save me Lord.
Rescue me from this plight im in Lord, for only You are able.

Give me joy that no one else can give, i bring my case to You Lord

Help me, I need You Lord and I want You to help

And i thank You beforehand for the soon-to-happen rescue and strength to carry through

For You will carry me on, on eagles wings and i will soar the heavens and high above the skies with You. You will take off my burdens and share them and teach me more.
This I yet praise and thank You in Jesus Name

Today........

I visited B. Rixiang at NUH. Hope he enjoys the orange juice. hahahaha. Its better than saline water for sure hahahahaha. Before that, met joseph for lunch which made me late for one my lessons. :( But i rocked out the practice sessions. Ha i shall be prepared for the next EV sessions man. Yeah

That kinds of sums up today
I shall update as the time comes to

For now i bid thee adios, aligos, amigoes

Later..............

Jamm- X mode

2011-01-03T08:18:00.000-08:00

Xup man, today's jamming sessions was totally cool man
We had it at Chapter 6 and sang quite a number of songs
It was sad that it was short but its was quite cool
I got to use a mic again after soooo long man
I should seriously invest in a mic soon man
Learned that kai kee is a pianist and sageet had an awesome but shrill voice
Hoo cant compete when she goes all out, probably knocks out all the sopranos i know hahahhaha
Looking forwards to the uploads. When that's done, i update soon
Later.............

New year resolutions 2010

2011-01-02T09:35:00.001-08:00

This will be a year of the Lord's favor.

I will obey His Will and accomplish it with my life

1. I will forgo my bad habits

2. I will attain access to all notes and have perfectly tuned ears

3. I will lead my small group of posers from glory to glory

4. I will join Z3 ministry and dance ministry

5. I will impact and strengthen the pastoral team

6. I will regain my guitar skills

7. I will be a model

8. I will not be afraid of my fears of height, loneliness and claustrophobia

9. I will learn to be humble

10. I will learn to love others

11. I will alleviate my rage and learn to be more patient towards others

12. I will lead, teach and disciple people to the Lord

13. I will see my grandmother get saved

14. I will pass my driving test on the first try

15. I will change the unedifying joke culture of my lifegroup

16. I will stop running away and face my past and overcome them

17. I will protect God’s people

18. I will teach others about God

19. I will use my leaves and off in army for missions and radical conference and not for myself

20. I will show the non Christians, the world is not about themselves or money, its about God

21. I will complete the Love Dare challenge 365 days

22. I will follow the Bible Reading Plan as well as what God gives me

23. I will not be late in meeting the Lord

24. I will be punctual

Reflections of 2010 partx 1

2010-12-25T22:25:00.001-08:00

Reflections of so many
I really dont understand why so many of my church members desire me to be in OCS. I know i have the capability to do so and physical prowness if i so choose to make. But what many fail to realise is that i will miss church. I believe that by doing so is the one of worse mistakes of my life. I can gain recognition and fame or money regardless of where i am and what i do. However the time lost is something i will never gain back.
Army has nothing to offer me.
What is money, what is fame, what is national pride to me.
I have been rejected by the world. My only purpose is the Lord. My only family is the Lord and His People who have gone before me encouraging me from the great cloud of witness. This world has nothing to offer me.
My body is definitely injured and according to doctors, its not one that is supposedly fit.
Now then, the question would lie in why i am able to do exceedingly more than what im supposed to do.

The answer is simply that the Lord empowers me to do what i can and more.
I am not strong, i am weak. But because my Lord is strong, so I am strong
So now the choice of such lies in my hands and decisions
And i choose to spend time with the Lord.

I was not made to represent the elites but rather the oppresed, the hurt, the oucasts, the rejects of society. To show them love and care for them. This is why being on the top will not allow me to impact them as much doing so directly

Recently my pre-christmas and christmas has'ne been the exact perfect one for me
Take for example camp, i got hurt my the leaders, the pastoral team, friends and family through uncaring and harsh words. Not to say that its in their nature, but rather to say in their mistakes. I do not claim myself to be perfect but i do claim that i dont cut people up without reasons.
During camp, my pants also ripped during praise and worship which was quite a surprise. Good or bad i dont know but i did have a laugh over it too hahaha. I think that was probably one of God's jokes on me. I guess simple obedience can also be fun too hahahaha
This camp was not really a good one but an excellent one. Even though i was hurt more than i was happy, God made it awesome by growing me and teaching me even more that i expected. Jesus totally rocks man

Oh ya the good parts about camp before i move on.
The kids i empowered last year came back and encouraged me when i was in the downers here and there. They are one of my pride and joys. Total compliments to john, mun ho, isaac, tim and james.
Also i got to use my gift of prophecy again. Woots!!!
Not forgetting i got to meet new cool people like celine, tiffany and wan ni too. Awesome kids. Makes me feel like joining Youth Impact to lead. Wooty Woots!!!
In addition i got understand pastor matt lots more. Totally rocknesss

Christmas bash ( too too to toooo)[horn sound]
Was late for the first session but it was awesome seeing people getting saved. Jumps!!!
After that it totally fun entertaining the kids, the youths and friends at the nutty naughty nutcracker game booth. Totally funilicious
After that i had to blast from place to place to run errands and stuff. Totally killer man.
Next was the party with pulith and sean. Cool people man.
After that was the clearing up which was quite tiring and then i headed home.
Got hurt by my parents again.
Sighness man, when will the tears stop falling.
After had a good time with the Lord in the Secret Place.
Then i chilled out for the night.

Later..................

By the way if you dont know Jesus
You will definitely want Him in your life
Why? Cause He loves you and gave Himself up for you as a gift so that your broken relation with God due to sin, could be resolved and fixed.
Now that the gift is given, its up to you to accept it or reject
Trust me on this, you want to accept it cause its free for you and me
And all you have to do is just say this and mean it with your heart
Thats all

Lord Jesus, im sorry for my sins and i want to repent of doing it again
Forgive me. Come into my life and guide me on. In Jesus Name. Amen

Simple no?

Letter to ' that person'

2010-12-11T08:09:00.001-08:00

As my relationship with 'that person' is cleaved, i shall say a few words

1. Lets see how well you do in the world without the flame by your side
2. Of all the times i protected you, now face them yourself with your own choices
3. May God protect you and lead you back to the path He has set for you
4. I will not accept you back unless the Lord sayeth so
5. Yes i did like you before even though my back was full of stabs
6. When i chose to like a person, i lost the need to care for looks and personality. It just becomes unconditional love
7. When you tried to change yourself, you looked worse
8. Your only hope and love is the Lord alone
9. Without the Lord you are dead meat
10. May God bless you and seeth you till the end, as for me i will have no part to play unless the Lord calleth to me to your aid. Chao

Triple late updates

2010-12-11T07:51:00.000-08:00

Xup man, its been quite awhile since i last came.
First i wanna talk about the healing that God gave me.
On the day i went to watch rapunzel with jerald, i had a turbulent headache as well as a bad nausea
As i came out from the show, my nausea got worse and my headache turned into a migraine.
While we ate at long john silver, i could barely touch my food and i often have to get up to walk around since i was going in and out of consciousness
As i said my grace, i prayed to the Lord: " Lord give me the strength and grace to eat my food and give me the strength and grace to go home. In Jesus Name i pray, AMEN"
After that i managed to eat some food. After dinner, my nausea got better and i didnt feel like vomiting.
I took a cab home and as i prepared to sleep, my migraine lessened. By the time i did my quiet time, i was completely healed. So Praise the Lord and give Him glory for my God is the Jehovah Rapha, the God who heals.

Secondly i'm gonna touch on last week's sermon which talked about free tickets and to let your beliefs drive your life
That was a totally apt and awesome sermon. It reminded me that i needed to get my beliefs back to driving seat and not be distracted by the words of people, regardless of who they are.
It told me to align my actions, my emotions and will to the Lord's Spirit and obey him. It is from this sermon that i got what i needed back. My passion to serve the Lord regardlessly
This also told me not to make choices based on what i desire but instead i should decide my choices based on the Lord's Word, Teachings and Commands.

Lastly for this post, i shall talk about today's sermon
The sermon today was about flashback and rejection, on how rejection in the past and other past hindrances can affect your growth in the Lord
Its totally what i needed.
Recently, i was struggling about certain people who damage done to me in the past hasnt healed and i have a hard time struggling to forgive and accept them. Its not easy you know
Take for examples - Jiehau and wanxin plus other leaders who have discouraged the dreams the Lord gave me, correction without gentleness or love, stigmatised and targeted me via false accuastions. Man it really hurts
- Distrust, malice and apathy from friends and family as well as acquaintances
- Experiences of people that have taught me that there is no good person in the world, all are evil with a selfish intention to benefit themselves at the expense of others.
- Not forgetting betrayal and rejection by close friends

Yet if i were to name all, the list would be of no end. For who has not sin against me and me against them. I have harboured nothing but hatred and disgust to these people. I admit i am not perfect and i have sinned against them. Its hard you know
This is why i need Jesus and its because of Him and the people He sent, has empowered me to move beyond my human nature to overcome my sinful passions and desires. My God Jesus Rocks

Today, God broke my heart. It was awesome, it was like a release from the bondage of all those times that i was rejected and hurt. My God is King. Today i have only one thing in mind, and it will propel me further.

I will please the Lord

Till next time
Later................

Dated of today. Opening and closing

2010-11-29T06:51:00.000-08:00

Xup man, most of the time its not easy
It gets really boring when i try to be human even though i totally dislike it
Come on, who likes to spew disgusting words that pollutes the soul
Who likes to talk about obscene stuff like my peers do and mean nothing about
Ignorant is not bliss, it is irritant

Its not easy being me
I cant speak like the way i want to because there are yet to be ladies who appreciate such stuff
The language of gentleness and love is not often accepted too by my male peers who fail to understand the poetry and maturity when one builds another instead of break
Although most of the time i have to hide my words behind simple complexities ( Ironic as it sounds) and subtle masquerades, my words still hold a bit of gentleness and builds people up with a minute sting to couple it

Life is hard, but if God is with, it is worth it

Later.........

2010-11-25T04:01:00.000-08:00

Xup man, i always wondered why am i given more than enough
More work than enough as well as more blessings than enough
Not many people know the pain i go through nor the burdens i carry
Its because i have suffered much i love much
I am most in debt has much thanks to give to He would saved me from my misery

Lets start with work
When i do it to perfection, i am given more to do. Not necessary what i want cause i have better things to do, but yet i have to do for the sake of my Father who loves them. Yes my work is people.
If work was an achievement, i would have achieved it.
If work was a material gained , i would have gained it
No, it has to be something more challenging, impossible and unreachable
A treasure that cannot be easily attained nor easily taken
People, the most troublesome things i know hahahahaha
Everytime, to listen to their whims and to fill the gaps in their hearts, its an honor and joy for me to do so.
But when crunch time comes, sigh, its tough
Take for example today, i had to deal with one of my past failures that failed to care for, his vendetta against me was high and mighty, striking me with every fallibility of mine
Pain and pain, yet God protected me
Who knows how i'll ever recover if my God did not protect me and shield me with His Love
Or take the ignorant of heart, or the stubborn ones.
Children are awesome but kids are not always that awesome.
God save them, please

Well onward to blessings
God has given me more than i can have. One thing i got to say is love
I was a man of hate and anger, shown by the black flame.
But God saved me and replaced my hate and anger for love and grace through the forgiveness He gave me on that cross.
Awesomely totally rad
Thats probably one of the greatest blessings i have.
Not to mention the current ones i have now,
I am called to heal the hurt of people, to protect the weak and oppressed, to guide the lost to Him, to be a light that shines that no man should have a reason to fall
To stand firm and pick people up. What a rad job i have
I am also blessed with friends that will hopefully grow into comrades, like isaac, tim, edwin, tom, glyn just to name a few
I also had the honor of meeting people from the lower strata of society and the higher tops as well such as hairi, gary and the gang , and from the better off side, alodia and ashely to name a few.
Such blessings they are even with the pinches of salt and pepper

Continuing on to the pain,
There's probably isnt a pain greater than having experience a minute pain that Christ faced
Nor is there any other fear so strong that it can scare a man who has been resurrected by Christ
There isnt a situation i have yet to face
Struck and betrayed, outcasted and beaten, bullied and persecuted, not to mention the experiences i gained through my ability to understand and feel the pain that others gone through.
Yes it is a gift from God, quite good for understanding other people.

Lastly we have the burdens
Burden of raising the kids
Burden of being a role model
Burden of doing God's work
Burden of being called from multiple places
Burden of fighting myself
Burden of seeking knowledge and growth
Burden of not being understood
Burden of this and that

Although people may claim my strengths are many compared to the rest, my weaknesses are much more. I can say so and boast so proudly because its My God who trains me and gives me the strength to do it. The good i do, you probably see is not by my own strength but He who lives in me and gives me the grace to accomplish the mission that is given to me. My calling

And faith is the evidence of things i cannot see. Yeah faith is the confidence that You are holding me.

Later people........................

Shall be

2010-11-23T05:03:00.000-08:00

Xup man, exams are finally ending. Woots
Its seems that i havent been myself lately.
Its kinda sad , but im glad im finally going back to training
There seriously isnt anything better than being in the Lord's Presence and doing the Lord's way.
Yes im planning to get back to the Spirit but i'll be back to fulfill my missions
Look forward to the people i'll be working with and the difference i'll be making for the Lord.
Im quite tired trying to fill the gap in my heart, and though it seems that no one will be there to pick me up.
I know my God will provide for me all that i need as He promised in Matthew 6:33-34
My God is my Provider
I want to learn Your Name O Lord, for its fun and it gives me joy
I want to be strong because my God is strong and i inherit all that He has and He is, because i am his son

Though i tread through this battlefield and the path is long
My friends and my comrades, where are they? I cannot see
Lord You are my Guide, as long as You remain in me, i will succeed.
Its time to unite O my soul, awaken awaken from thy sleep
wake thy hands and wake thy feet, for we shall work in the vineyard of the Lord
No job too great too small to do
My God, I trust in You

In recent news i see that the North is attacking the South
Looks like i awoken at the right time.
Its time to give aid, and a time for peace
To give hope the hopeless and joy to sorrow
Why is war a reason to fight.
A war fought for human reasons is not one to make
Rather war against the evils and principalities of this world
Against the evil rulers of the spiritual realm, we shall fight
Not against one another,
For what good does it bring, biting and tearing and each other
Think, i say think
For such foolishness leads to destruction.
My friend my foe, human you shall be
Mistakes made should be forgiven,
For the sword kills the body, but Love kills the sin
And without sin, the soul is free
Redeemed by the Blood of Our Saving One
Upon death of a cross, His Blood saved us
Enough for the past, the present and to be
What grace is shown by Jesus alone
That love is God and God is Love
Love conquers all

Update #1 Modern chaoness and fun b language

2010-11-06T09:32:00.000-07:00

Xup man,
recently it has been a downer
I got my exams next week and yet i dont feel confident in tackling the papers.
I feel quite incompetent actually. My lack of ability of memory and application have increased over years
I attribute it to my fall and struggle with countless temptations that have befuddled me throughout the ages
Sometimes i wish i was made a perfect being or at least one without these weaknesses. Man, being a boy is easy especially being selfish but being a man? Now thats tough

Thankfully God has changed my nature and its really sucks when i have to actually exert force upon people.
Cant people be cooporative and trusting to one another? Doesnt anyone know that working together in sychonisation is the best and most effective method of teamwork? Like take a look at the Israelites when they were rebuilding the Lord's Temple during Asa's Time.
They neednt have a lock over their treasury because the workers took what they needed only so no accountability was needed.
Another example would be Australia before modernisation. Did you know that people would leave empty milk bottles outside their houses with money in their postboxes to pay for the milk while the milkman delivers full bottled milk to their houses everyday?
Like totally wow-ness man.
That is the most efficient system i have ever seen. And exactly as i envisioned.

I bet most of you people, and i include my family and friends, dont even know my nature or the weight of the burden i carry. It sucks when people try to assume that they know you but they dont. Like come on, ask some questions. Its not like i wont reply them.
The most annoying thing is that no questions, no answers given and no improvement

It also sucks when authorities abuse their power and also when they dont use it at all.
Totally man, what are they asking for? Must i or the rest of my comrades exert the authority given to us? Crudness man.
Dont look at it the wrong way, i dont mind doing work but i sure dislike having to fix messes that dont improve themselves.

You know after the war when all the work is done. I will probably be a muse and sing and dance all day long in praise to God. Woooohoo. Cant believe i have to miss out of meeting another muse due to my exams. Totally uncool.

Oh by the way, here's a secret
When i say im tired. I do not literally mean that im fatigued im in. Rather im tired of the situation that no improvement has been done to help it. It also means im gonna go into my serious mode and fix stuff
When i say im sleeping, it means im tired hahahaha

For now, chao people
Later....................

Looking back and the reactions to girls

2010-11-06T09:19:00.001-07:00

Xup man, i thought that it would be nice to show the rising trend of reaction to the opposite sex

1991 - All forget it
2000 - Girls are awesome stuff
2001 - Any girl whose pretty and kind is more than enough
2002 - Foreigners ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2003 - Cute locals too
2004 - HAREM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( Im sorry but its a normal guy's dream)
2005 - Dating age
2006 - Tired of competiting, God made 1 girl for me
2007 - Purity one man one girl
2008 - Plan for future
2009 - Too many temptations, must filter
2010 - Raises standard. Wife level standard

i shall expound on 2001 onwards
2001- Knowing that girls are awesome people, must choose the best for the best
2002 - Well most princesses i read about are foreigners + they could have awesome personalities until i watched the teen movies of disney channel
2003 - Met some cool people but then realised that God was not leading me to them. Looking back now. YESSS!! I did not succumb to temptation
2004 - Acquired the skills to be the top guy but after filtering, nadah
2005 - My buddy did the work for me except for group dates
2006 - Thought of having multiple dates, too troublesome. + not gentlemanly and does not suit my nature
2007 - Decided become the most awesome man for the most awesome girl
2008 - Preping myself + training stage
2009 - Wow to redheads, blondes, brunettes, asians and wow totally awesome. Immense temptation there
2010 - Slaps myself. Woo i didnt go over the edge. Too close for comfort. Return back to true form and here i am now

Thank You
Later................

DarkFlamix reborned

2010-10-31T05:40:00.000-07:00

Post killed and deleted along with is owner

Later.........

Darkflamix RIP

2010-10-20T07:01:00.000-07:00

Lord i cry out to you, rescue me from my enemies. Lord You are my avenger
For that reason im not jack
A ripper no longer shall i be.
Thus a protector i've become
So strike those evil, enemies of mine
Strike them down, into the dust
That all may see Your Glory
and justice.
Avenge your child, Lord You see my heart
You know my actions and my thoughts
I did no evil to these i met
So repay them back for the evil they've done
Eye for an eye
Tooth for a tooth,
Death for all evil
and Justice to the meek

WIki Waka Shun

2010-10-17T07:12:00.000-07:00

Xup man, birthday has been good, but could be better
This year was my first birthday that i did not plan
It was almost as expected. Try again next year
But totally thanks to all of you, even those of you internationally for trying to make my birthday a smashing success. Love you people

Looking forward to
AFA( Anime Festival Asia)- This year i'll be going as my 18 year old character. Shinta Mitake. Check it out then

A levels - Im gonna kick your ass this time

Christmas - I'll hope to participate in the acting

Z3 - To the album and may i have an audition soon

Missions - Looking forward to impacting the world

Healing - To healing others who call upon the Lord's Name. Looking forward to healing people with the gift and hands that the Lord gave me

Now......
Fixing myself up
Studying hard
Being awesome everyday

Look forward to words of wisdom and the arts coming up soon.
Chao or as its said in english
Later..............

Anime guys related to me

2010-09-19T04:53:00.000-07:00

Please note that this taken from the animes and mangas and games i have read recently only and its not all hahahahaha
12. Siegfried

Ah siegfried, we are much alike. After conquering inner demons and coming out alive. I like the use of swords and the broadsword is one of my favourites. Seperated from our dark past, we seek to amend our ways and make up for our darkened past.
Awesome stuff

11. Black cat

We both have much to regret about over our dark past, specialising in each our own weapon, we eradicate evil as fast as possible. However if given the scenario, we both refuse to kill anyone anymore regardless.

10. Ageha Yoshina

Ageha yoshina represents my naive side which is often on my part chooses to be blur to certain advances. While having an awesome blackburst technique derived from a demon. He has tamed it as much as i did. Having being surrounded by 3 awesome girls, i await that moment or more hahahahaha

9. Rurouni Kenshin

Ah i remeember the time i got to lean the samurai arts, awesome stuff. Abandoning the path of destruction and leaning on peace, seeking to do what's right and ended up with a princess of his own. Cool stuff cept for the tragedy

8 .Brook

He represents the mischevious side of me. I like his nonchalent funny attitude even with the eccentric perverted nature, represents the kid nature in me hahahaha
7. Usui from Kaichou wa maid sama

Usui who is in love with misaki and often plays with her in his hand. He represents the romantic side as well as the quiet side of me who keeps to myself. We both are eccentric at times except i dont really have full control over my talents like he does yet hahaha. Mysterious and unpredictable, an interesting find. Yup yup

6. Franky

Franky represents the crazy part of me where we both like to do enthu powered up crazed filled things. I like the SUPER dance and i got my own hahahaha. We both get very emotional sometimes over over-dramaticised events hahaha. Watching him is enuff said

5. Kenichi Shirahama
Kenchi represents the weak side of me that wants to continue to grow stronger. Training in mixed martial arts which i gained over the years, we both continually strive to be stronger than what we are, except i have only One Master now. Enuff said

4. Itsuki Minami aka Ikki from Air gear
He represents the punk side of me, regardless of where we are. We are selfish in our way of methodology of caring for others. Although oblivious to girls like a part of me, we focus more on becoming better at what we do. I do hope he goes after simca instead cause simca is wayy better

3. Luffy
Luffy wooohooo, we both pure idiots in a sense as we go for what is right. We both enjoy being in power and leading others along in our goal. Priding friendship and comrade highly, we seek to protect our nakama as we continue our journey. We both stick to our principles and shun stupid principles away. Awesome stuff. Again oblivious to romantic pursuit, we have great love for food, fighting and enjoying the company of our nakama. Woohoo, he may have rubber abilities but i have fire yay :)

2. Kilik

Kilik is a representation of my serious side. We do what we need to do. Enuff said

1. Yet to be found

Beauty and personality

2010-09-19T04:01:00.000-07:00

Well its belong since i lasted posted and i think this would be quite interesting to talk about.
What kind of girl who i go for
Well since the time pastor talked about the One theory and the Supermarket theory.
I believe more in the One theory and rather disregard the Supermarket theory
I think i should make this quite clear, if the princess i havent met has been tainted by going into a relationship before, i will never accept her as my wife much less my partner.
I would rather be bachelor all my life than be tainted by a tainted product.

For me i have no other girls in sight but my princess which was given to me by the Lord Himself. So if i was asked the question about whose fault it is for BGR. I will say its both
Male - For being the predator, deceiving and tricking the female of false hopes and promises that cannot be kept
Female - For being idiotic enough to fall for such promises and be tainted.

Of course there are other circumstances such as companies, peer pressure and the not.
However all involved will be burned to crisp even if they begged for mercy.
In such circumstances, no one will be spared and there will be no compromise
I will not lower my principles nor will i lower my beliefs for the world or anybody.
I believe that there is only one out there for me and thus i will wait even if that one is broken

Some say that beauty is the personality while others say its the appearance that is beauty
However my take on this would be
The outer beauty is a reflection of the inner state while the personality is one of the factors that influence the outer beauty.
Shall i elaboarate
If one's persona is rottenness and worldliness, through smoking, drugs and what not will cause her body to degrade causing it to be nauseating
Yet even those that were supposedly labelled by the world as ugly, if having a nice personality will cause the body to change in such a way to cause her body to be beautiful in her own way.

Its a symbiotic relationship i believe that what make the person beauty. One is not without the other nor the other without the one
When looking for a beautiful person, i rather see the inside for the inside is what makes the outside.

So thats all for it for now folks
Later..............

Ta da Tada

2010-08-28T23:40:00.000-07:00

Xup man, i'll write the song later as promised but for now

I say this words out loud
The war blazes on even though the peace is thought to reign
I fight with merciless sweat pouring down on me
What does it mean to rest, to live and die and rise and grow
I find it mesmorising and intriguing so much that i'm propelled to go
I turn my eyes so many times yet the battle rages on
We fall and we rise, we are soldiers of the Lord
The many times we fall means the the many more we grow
For the enemy cannot shake us, on the Solid Rock we stand
The waves of conformity rages all around us, tempting us to abandon our Safe Haven
Our Tower of Refuge and be swept along
Nay i say to the waves and winds that bend with times,
We shall not be caught by thy traps the enemy sets
Rather than running, we stand our ground with our shields in our lefts and swords in our right
Fight on against the waves and rescue those captured by thee
Stuck in the stronghold and prison of walls, jailed by the mind and heart
Be strong of heart and stand firm for the captives and oppressed cry for help
As we are sent, we shall go. So come my brothers and come by sisters
Let us fight as we are called to do. Stand firm on the Rock of our Salvation and fight till the battle is done
For the war is won though the battles rages on. Be not afraid, for our Shelter, our Strong Provider, our God is with us

Personal part
Though i walk amidst the battle field, where O though are my princess. What i've seen and what i know are all kids who grow, all potential princes and princess
Where are thee my dear princess, that we shall meet. I wait with growing patience

And though the world may fade, our Father's Word shant. It shall be my joy to see these kids turn from young to that old, to that of youths to maturity.Thus shall be

Desperate

2010-07-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

I dont think i ever repressed my feelings until this year when i entered army. Now everything is coming out. I cant stand it when im not in the Lord's Presence. How did i live for so long without always being with Him. Its like going now from the mount of transfiguration without His Spirit
Today, an awesome song just shot out of me literally.
While i was bathing i started to praise the Lord, my feelings, my emotions, my focus. All was just Jesus
Im chasing Im chasing Im chasing Im chasing Im chasing You
Im chasing You Lord.
Refine my heart Lord, teach me to live, teach me to be a light for You
I wanna shine, i wanna dance i wanna live again for You
I surrender all Lord I surrender all

I just need Jesus so much, i cant believe i didnt do so earlier. Lord I love You

Resolve

2010-07-14T10:22:00.000-07:00

Xup man, im here to say this
I am up and ready to take on whatever leadership roles im required of
And i will take over if no one is gonna be the change.
It is a good time for me to wake up for as the current situation proceeds, its way too noisy for me to sleep especially when there arent enough capable people handling the job and those who are, are being either too lazy or inefficient to reach the full potential.
I'll say this once and for all, through God, all things are possible and all problems can be solved.
There is no unfixable unconquerable problem when God is at your side.
While i may be suffering in pain from multiple injuries especially the most pressing one being my neck and back. I will fulfill the duties given me nonetheless. If you are uninspired, learn from this. Regardless of my injuries, fears and failures, i will not give up in fulfilling my duties to perfection. This is the standard that we all should set, not as average and mediocre but as perfect and professional. Listen and learn for this is the way of success

If you arent interested in what you are doing, careful or i'll replace you, leading to your self regret. Learn, grow and become stronger. As for me, in my greatest weakness, i am at my strongest. For it is then i fully rely on my Lord to lead me through, thus become stronger.

Anyway just for references and to light up your world and views of it.
Here is my list of hidden injuries and weakness
Oversensitive body- Eyes to bright light
-Nose to dust, dirt, smoke and strong scents
- Taste to spicy and poisionous flavourings(MSG)
- Ears to loud sounds
- Touch to sunlight, humidity and dryness of air

Injuries - Strained left ankle
- Shoulder sprains
- Deformed neck
- Back injury
- Weakened grips
- Muscle spasms
- Strained arms, femurs and hip muscles
- Constant migrains

Illness - Sore throat
- Migrains
-Insomnia
-Clustrophobia
-Gynephobia

Well thats most of it, so have a good time being enlightened hahahahaha
Well as duty calls, i see you again soon
Later..........

Xup man

2010-07-11T07:53:00.000-07:00

Xup man, i dont know why but it seems like im blogging more and more often
My academia seems fine and all but im having difficulty adjusting to following wisdom
Wisdom dont always say the things i want it to say and the thing i want to do
Like bgr- Bryan says yes, wisdom says no
Work - Overwork bryan says yes, wisdom says no
hahahahaha

Ok onto serious stuff
I realise one thing as i listened to the sermon again, excluding the fact of the wedding scenario that cycles in my mind. Wisdom says something and the right thing says something. Yet wisdom is to lead me onto the path that is right which is God's Will. And true wisdom comes from heaven. So perfection in other words would mean doing what is right in the wise way.
I often remember this which is why i dont speak out much depending on the situation.
Truth without love hurts
When im pissed at someone or got something to bad to say( normally to the male population)
I wont say anything until i found a caring way to express it.
Im sorry but to girls its a relative to the situation ( sometimes its im shy, fearful, angry, or something the above hahahahaha so either way you'll never guess me right hahahaha)

Ok back to topic again. Man my stomach is cramping
I unfortunately have to take up leadership again and cant act as if im not the leader even though sometimes its very obvious. And yes i cant stay by the side giving coded messages to those in the limelight.
Mann work again hahahahaha. Looks like before i can ascend higher i finish what is normal. So here's what i'll do
1. I train the lifegroup and small group up in the way it should go, so you guys will be big enough to care for the rest
2. Im gonna teach you annoying boys what it is to be man
3. Im gonna top the singapore in academia
4. I gonna top my posting in whatever it may be

Signed and said, Kyo Shinta Mitake Firex.
Alright sealed;

Next up im gonna search for my guitar and play my songs. Other than tom, if any of you want to get my cd for free. You better voice out now if not im charging you the same price it takes to pay for an album
Other than that, it looks like my time is up.
So later......................people

Hey yall

2010-07-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

Xup man, im gonna undergo serious training soon so im here to say xup people
Its been long since i was awakened again
I know all i ever do is complain unlike previously where i normally share out awesome stuff but its tough i must say
Having complicated feelings and being attracted to different girls aint cool you know
Also having to train others while facing internal conflicts and spiritual attacks aint easy. Im sure past disciplers understand this much hahahahahaha
Need to train my voice for songs, searching for guitar, you get the picture
I cant believe my old teachers still have high expectations of me hahahaha
Its amazing but im thankful that all of them never gave up on me
I know im suppose to be the chosen one whose the best at everything but until i reach that level, its very tough.

I know my Lord is with me and my princess is far.
I know my friends behind me and the enemies at far.
I see my goals before and my wife thats at hand.
I see the people rescued with the broken hearted healed.
I see my purpose coming for the time is at hand.

Is it alodia, is joy, is it michelle or someone else
I dont know who im suppose to love but to love them all
To care for the weak and lead the strong
To guide the poor and homeless
To see the blind come to see and the lame to walk again
Till i wed, im blind to see
Who my princess is to be

My feelings deceive and my eyes are blind
Let my spirit lead
O God Divine, my Guide my Life
Be my All to me
Be my Song
Be my Strength
Be the Light i seek
Be my Light and my Salt
You my King, I'll shine

Here's my poem, letcha read, the time for me to go is now
So now i bid thee, Farewell

Later............

Bryan is revived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-08T09:57:00.000-07:00

Xup man, its been long since i was myself
I cant believe i let myself get sucked in to all the pressure
I remember Lord, Your Promise, Your Calling,
I am called to be a protector and a man of faith
I will fulfill that calling and protect all those who i am called to protect
I will heal all those who cry for help
I will heal the broken-hearted and the hurtful
All by the power of Jesus Christ in me
For Christ lives in me and i can do all things through Him
I will not waste the gifts You've given me Lord
I will not fail but i will be the best there ever is
Watch me Lord for i will go for You
You know i think that was the longest down period ever when all i ever

Comrades in arms, im coming back
No worries
I remember my faith and what i must do.
Lets go people, for the glory of the Lord
Yeah man!!!!!!!!!!!!

Later............

Words i will not say in public

2010-07-04T00:18:00.000-07:00

Xup man, its is tiring being alone. This struggle of myself against myself it seems to be too much. Many times i desire to give up and be taken to heaven again, languishing in my old paths. Lord this is tough, where are the comrades you placed for me. My life group is nothing but a farce of love that shows love biassedly to their designated group of people. Lord i go against them and i hate what they do, and i am not afraid to say this out to the world. Lord look at the damages they have done, where is Your Love here Lord. I am so tired. Who can i turn to but You my Lord, the lifegroup you have given is but a bunch of snakes who care not a a single bit for me. They show only one-time acts yet use that against me to speak truth without love. I am sad Lord, i have no one but You. Can i not turn to boy-girl relationships for support instead since my fellow lifegroup memebers save but some have care for me. This is tiring and unsupporting. Lord save me O Lord for I know You save O Lord.
I want to grow stronger Lord, send to me a comrade that would be an encouragement that when i am done i can look to him or her for encouragement, and when he or she is down, that person can look to me for encouragement.

Lord I leave this up to you O Lord but this is my complain against them Lord

My thoughts of the current status

2010-06-28T23:15:00.000-07:00

Xup man, here i am in the army once more. It is saddenning that i am here for its a place i do not wish to be> In my current time i find it tough faced with all the challenges and stress of a technician( which is something i would not have want)
Yet i am lacking in external support from friends and family.
It is seriously tough though i tend to complain alot

The good thing however that the Singapore army isnt as stressful that when being in the Lord's army where everything has to be perfect.
I find the lack of competition among my peers and my friends quite boring and normal, the loss of a challenge is seriously the worst ever situation that can ever pop up.
I wonder if there would be an interesting girl out there that would catch my interest. Yet alas my studies and work call me. Taking care of kids, healing people, studying hard to achieve my destiny.
Man i would not have imagined myself in this situation at all when i was younger. Some may say that a year or 2 is quite short, but yet i tell you that a month is enough to be considered as long. A day is more than enough to acomplish great things

How i despise my injuries, sealing so many of my techniques. It feels almost so human. I WANNA BE HEALED!!!!!!!!!! but after i donwnpes. Unfortunately i do not share the same loyalty and patriotism as many of my peers do towards this country. I find myself quite detached from any country actually since its only a piece of land that we temperary live in. Hehehehe, i wonder how many people have read up to here. Hahahahahaha

Alright the bluff talk is above and the real stuff is here
I am in pain and in suffering yet i enjoy it enough to know that this is what the Lord has planned for me and that when i complete this journey i will come out stronger and move faster than eveyone around me. Perfection is my only goal and i choose to live it out. I plan to live as a Stem Cell for Christ as what i am called.
You know when i knighted and called out for duty as a protector. I wonder how many more must i protect and how many more will come into my protection
Intriguing is it not?
Ha.......Looks like its time to continue my work
From now till then, i bid thee farewell
Later......

Pain And Anger mixed HELP

2010-05-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

Xup man
Im am faced with a dangerous enemy
One of wrath and anger
Full of hate and destruction
I am facing my old self

With all the pain and suffering i am going through
Lord i ask for a companion that i know you have or are preparing
But Lord with each passing moment i find my pain and anger unbearable
My wrath has turned to bloodlust which rails against the bars of captivity to be unleashed
Lord remove this from me for i dont want it
I know you said having anger against someone is the same as murder
And i dont want to murder anymore
but the pain is there
I find it hard to say nice things
The smile on my face can only appear because You are near
I need You Lord in all that i do
And i need You Lord to overcome this.
This anger and pain is making me evil
Dangerous thoughts of muder and strife
I dont want this to be my life
So help me Lord in all that i do
Im asking You Lord to remove this from me
Help overcome this painful sensation
Jesus im looking to You

Repaid evil with good

2010-05-11T08:19:00.001-07:00

Xup man, today was the toughest day of one of my army life
Today when i was in the toilet i was humiliated by my army mates with the worst things boys can do.
I was really pissed and that was when the battle started for me
My anger quickly came into play and i was so filled with hateful thoughts that every thought was filled with pure bloodlust. I dont think it seems quite believable but those who knew me way before knows that i was a bloodthirsty anarchist so yeah
I had such murderous intent that even the nearby people around me could feel the fear of being killed in my thoughts.
It was then i remembered the sermon on forgiveness that God forgave us for our sins
And to forget His forgiveness is like forgetting my own face after looking in the mirror a second ago.
God reminded that i am His son and that He is well pleased with me. He told me to forgive which was the hardest thing to do. As my old nature started voicing out to me to kill and rip them apart.

BUT
BUT BUT
Thank God that He is in charge always and not me. The Lord gave me strength to hold back my anger and hatred and to cast them out in the Name of Jesus Christ. ( Beautiful Name isnt it)
Afterwards i still had the evil feelings but my thoughts were clear and focused on God. It took me a while to settle down and even now i can see the scar left.
However i no longer feel the same pain and anger as i did back then which ironically is this evening.
I thank God that though i see that scar i am able to show grace and forgiveness when the time really called and that i am still able to be who I am called to be. I thank God that i did not sin because of that and stood firm in the faith and In His Name, i know i did right thing and made Him proud.
I know i refused to sin at that time and overcame this battle
I thank God that God is God
I thank Him that i am now made stronger than before because of what He has done to me
And I say. Praise God for He is God and I am not
For He is the Gracious and ever Loving God that shows mercy to the enemies
For when justice demanded blood, He gave Himself as the ransom for us and for that i can say proudly My God avenges and i dont need to kill any longer
PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord this is my report

2010-05-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

Xup man, life has become a difficult time for me.
The limits on my body has increased and my hand has ceased to have its original endurance as i once had. It is disheartening as such to see such things but nonetheless i will not be moved.
Even if my heart may stop and my bones may break. Even if my body ceases to function, my soul,my spirit shall continue to praise the Lord
Lord i dont understand why I am always placed in situations to help others at the cost of myself. I dont really do
However i know that You have a good plan for me. A plan for me to prosper and and future for me
One thing i thank You is for giving me oppertunities to experience part of what You've experienced. I thank You for giving me the chances to act like You do in the many situations.
Lord two things i ask is that You would be with me consistantly guiding me through these trials and tribulations that i always find harder and bigger than me. And next i ask is for when will i meet my princess that You have prepared for me.

Lord as my studies pile up, it seems hard for me to work with my hands disfunctioning day by day. Lord i pray that you would heal me completely at Your Own time that all the glory and honour will go to you

Father i am tired and stressed with the added challenges You give me. Help me Lord to find joy in these trials i face and for companions who have gone before me to encourage me on. Lord i thank You for everything so far
And with this I end. Thank You

Later..........

Testimonies of the Fire in prototype

2010-03-27T22:53:00.000-07:00

Xup man, im here to post 2 awesome testimonies over here.
Really cool
First is one that on sat rt
I had to sadly come back on friday night so it was totally uncool man
I was quite sad and did not know what to do as i am still suffering from my back injury
Very sad man
On thursday i was told by the ps that tian le and i would have to book out with the rest of the hg rt people at 4.30 but thank God that in the morning at 10 +, the pc came to me and told me that all of us who were on status could book out with the rt people at 12. I COULD COME TO CHURCH WOOOOHOOOO. Awesome man. God really rocks man, He's real and He came through of me man. Praise the Lord

Second one is that i was falsely charged by my superiors on 3 basis that was unfounded
1. Theft
2. Possession of food
3. Tresspass

During those days i was quite discouraged and depressed. I was stressed to my max and even loss my apetite to eat. It was a total bummer man. I kept complaining and asking God for help. Then when i asked my dad to help, he called to oo and the oo called me.
I immediately thought, wow is God working?
Then after i explained the incident, God gave me favour in the eyes of my superiors and they released the charge man. Wow what a relieve
God works man and he never fails to save
God saves, get it man
For now its time to go back to camp
Later.........................

Rocking the world with Christ

2010-01-27T09:14:00.001-08:00

Xup man. GOD IS AWESOME
Though i didnt ever think about it
GOD IS GONNA GIVE ME 107 songs in the army
Oh ya i havent posted this yet
But God gave me a plan, a vision for the future
I am gonna find a medical team of Christians called the Light of the Hope
And we are gonna go and heal people in the Name of Jesus
Cool huh?
We're rock this world together man. Its gonna be so rad that its blows off all things
This is the totally rad awesomest thing so far that i have gotten when i am currently in front of my speakers listening Jared Anderson songs and praising and worshiping God. Totally rad awesome.
Pray mann and connect with Jesus the Man of all Man
Take it your purpose and calling in life that God made you for
Go and live as you are called to be.
Rejoice for God is God and we are not WOOOOOHOOOOOO
AMEN!!!!
Later.............

+ + + Im gonna start song journal soon . Get ready!!!!!!!!

2010-01-23T07:53:00.000-08:00

Xup man, here's something cool for you guys to read about
On thurs, i had a horrible misunderstanding with my parents about the game meet i had in xin long's house so my father actually used psychological fear to injure me. At that moment the chains of my sinful self fell off and it was a major struggle to hold it in, put on a tough look and not transform and let it manifest.
By the time i went out of the car, i met andrea, and asked for a moment.
I headed for a nearby corner with my face facing towards no one and started the decisive battle of dominance over my body.
Boy it was tough, but out of the excuses that my sinful self gave to execute my parents and those around me, I took on the full armour of God, and dice it to pieces before dissipating it and kicking it back to its jail cell. After that i had to recreate bigger thicker and stronger chains to hold it in, taking each chains and sending it through its skin , muscles and bones while stabbing it with a few swords and leaving it there.
Well, thank the Lord i finished it and it should not be bothering me again with such a troublesome battle

Thats the end
Later...........

I wonder why

2010-01-11T07:00:00.000-08:00

Xup man, many a times i always ask myself this question
Why do i help those worthless souls who dont appreciate any God-given help?
Its pain, its hard, i sweat blood and tears, giving time and effort to build such people up to be Godly men and i get bitten in the hands for such good works.

Lord you remember me and what i've done, you know these people's names by heart and you see the injustice over here. Lord i know that you love them and if you didnt i would have cut them down ages ago but since you loved them and given them under my care even when they are such worthless dogs that deserved to be given to the enemy. You love them and as Your son and one You have entrusted this with, i will obey.

For Your Glory Lord shall i continue to do this even though these ungrateful hounds deserve the pain and suffering they are given. I fortunately shall continue to love them and protect them as promised and spoken. This shall be forever and ever till the time You choose otherwise for me.

The End.........
Later.......

2010-01-10T09:08:00.000-08:00

Xup people, lets gather some insight so that you guys will be able to understand me better.
In me i am myself, having one persona. During the situations i faced through my adolescence years, i have diverged my original persona into each distinct persona that represent part of myself. You can call it a mask or not but the fact remains that its a part of me so its me and yet its not entirely me hahahahaha

There is the kid, joker, philosopher, leader, athlete, musician, artist, serious, observer, introvert, scholar, warrior and shepherd. Well these are the main ones so far.

Each part represent a part of me that was diverged since there has yet to be one who could understand me when i merged all my personas together to form the original me.
When i revealed my original self to you, all of you if im not wrong said i was too complex for you to understand so i have diverged myself into these few categories that allows you to understand me easier. Of course there are more personas but let's just focus on these 12 for now.

Ok back to today's day. It was quite annoying trying to love others who cared nothing about me. I really despise it when people claim to love me yet do no action to prove their words. With words there should be actions lest the words remain worthless like the spring that it came from. Previously i had change my mindset knowing that humans are fallible and mosty succumb to their weaknesses and temptations. I decided to view them with no expectations at all and delight in them when they do something good. Well this is one aspect im still in the process of learning.
Today i am taught to fulfill a need in others. Yet it was quite troublesome when the people i thought i was close to, in their sin attacked me instead. When i was tired, no one helped me, when i was confused you disoriented me further, when i was down you criticised me unlovingly. What further shame is this to the Christian Name when one speaks the truth without love.
Though im still reluctant, i know that this is probably the right way to go. To love even when i would wish otherwise. In order to reach the potential that God called me to, to live as a Son of God, a Christian shining Christ's light. I decided to continue on and do such regardless of the wounds that are continually inflicted upon me.

How i wish that it was the enemy who inflicted these wounds instead of my own kinsman whom i placed my trust in. How can i rely then on such people who aim my life for trying to guide them to Life.

I say this, as Christians we are called to love. We are known by our love not fear, hate, anger and other what nots. We are called to love God and love others just like Jesus did. And by loving one another we will then be able to show the world that we are God's disciples. Go check John 13:34-35

So i call you now to do as such since we received the grace that the Lord has given us. Let us do likewise and let it be that through our actions that shine the Lord's love, be a testimony to the non-believers that God is the God of Love and Jesus is God.

As for now its time for my rest, so i bid thee adieu till the next time we meet.
Later..........

Secret treasure in itself

2010-01-07T08:03:00.001-08:00

I have found something more fun, more exhilarating, more blood pumping, more fulfilling than fighting in a battle. Thats loving others man

Mark 12:33
To love Him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices."
Mark 12:33
Giving love to others is more rewarding and more fulfilling than anything else man
AMEN!!!!

Troublesome people

2009-12-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

Xup man, its quite annoying when you find that people requires complex words in order and worthless verbage to convince them instead of a simple explanation. Status, Ranks, Hierarchy, Lineages, its totally annoying and boring.
I cannot believe such nonsense is the social norms of today. If people could see the truth that lies in front of them and trust God to lead their and guide their life, only then will the perfect scenarios occur.
Its sad that we are fallible beings who do not have the ability to initiate our return from our evil ways to God's good ones. Its by this truth that we have fallen can mercy be understood why we need God's grace so much.
I tell you, many people will put off a front in order to try and push this truth aside even when it is already sunken deep into their hearts when the words are spoken. Out of pride, out of great egoism and fear of disrupting their already broken image into something worse. Its troublesome but true

I do admit on my part that i have done similar things and have yet to reach the perfection of Christ but this is written not to judge and condemn but on the contrary, it is to awaken sleeping beauties of such to reality that through this they may aim for higher ground.

I trust that my words and thoughts have reached for this one time
That you may have understood the weight of such words
As for now, its time for me to go
But till then, i bid adieu
Later..........

Humans

2009-11-20T02:09:00.000-08:00

Nonetheless all humans are the same. From the day of their birth they are born originals but as they live more and more on earth, the more of a duplicate become. All words from human mouth are despicable. Not one is righteous and not one is good. When i look at humans i do not hate them, rather i hate the words they speak, i hate their tone, i hate their failures and most of all i hate their sin they so eagerly hold on to. By their sin, they are annoying to the core and i despise it.

Humans are useless in their knowledge speaking of things that have been spoken before. Everything said and everything done has been done before under the sun. There is no different. Human philosophy is worthless, what good is there when people chatter and no action is taken. Such philosophy is worthless regardless of where it stems, be it from religion, observations, sociology and yada yada the list goes on.

It is not until a human has a taste of death and overcome it through Christ is his life worthwhile. Not until his words are changed that they originate from the Lord, Our Creator does they hold meaning. Only from a good spring can good water come from. However humans that fake their change are still worthless nonetheless. Those who call themselves Christians even though their life is the same is no more lower than the dirt of the ground. Such people ought to be punished even greater than the sinners who are ignorant of the fact of the salvation by Christ. This is the truth. Unless a seed is thrown to the ground and died, it cannot yield a harvest of crops. Thus it is useless unless dead in sin and alive in Christ. This is the fact of all humans. There is no difference.

3 rabids had the guts to try and bite me

2009-10-22T02:06:00.000-07:00

Xup man, just got back from a major exam of bio today and gp
GP was fun but tough nonetheless
But bio was the toughest probably cause i wasnt ready but guess what i got saved again
I guess its true without a doubt that God saves
Acdemically, emotionally, spiritually, physically and all sorts of other planes GOD SAVES.
You know i was super tired from running around trying to find my pencilbox when i finally found it i was uber tired man.
When the bio paper came i prayed i would do well and God came true
Suddenly my hand started writing as if sub consciously but i know it was God cause i was too tired to think and needed to rest for awhile. But man it was awesome
After i finish writing the paper i came back to check my first few questions and it was answered in quite a detail. YEAH GOD ROCKS I KNOW
ITS TUBULARY RADICALLY AWESOME.

Today i realise one things that boys are like wild dogs unless tamed
When as much as i wanted to play the normal nice guy i had to play the dictator evil cold guy and brush them off. Its sad you know, i always want to treat others as my equal but then there are jerks who need to be disciplined heavily first before understanding such kind sentiments while on the other hand there are those of too low esteem to put themselves below me. SADNESS
Cant humans act normally like normal bros and sis.
Must everyone always come to me with a motive of doing something? The number of people who would just come to me as just friends have dwindled sadly. WHY but well lets move on.
There girls who seduce, there are girls who are proud, there are guys who are jerks, there are guys who are proud. But rare is human is neither proud nor holding a ulterior motive. It may not be platinum but such are worth their weight in gold at least.

Well, its time to continue on the fight. To my brothers and sisters who have kept me your prayers i thank you, and whoever wisehes for me to pray for them just write it down on the tagboard and i'll be glad to pray for ya.
Well later.... for now

Ugly is a word for the blind

2009-10-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

True enough nothing is can be truly ugly cept sin which is most of the time unwatched by the masses. For in all things was made good and beautiful and nothing was created ugly. Thus the term ugly is the word for the fools who hold no beauty in themselves since they threw it away for the lustful desires of sin, not one of logic.

Alright since that intro is done, lets get started on serious matters
Its sadness that out of all my disciples that i had, only one is faithful and worth commemoration. Here is the list of my unprecedented disciples - Kai Siang(fatty 2), Benji( Fatty 1, the almost eternal fatty), Richelle the 4th disciple( wannabe bryan) and yes the first and so far the best, Alisa the nice disciple.
Haiz, well looks like as their teacher i got lots of work to do. sob sob sob....ok enough sobbing
Its funny you know that i myself as well as many consider me an anomaly in this world. Its true that i do not have any interest in the common day things of this world nor do i have anything worth treasuring cept that which i bring to heaven. And that in the very sense is viewed to be quite worthless in the eyes of this world. What i treasure is not gold nor silver, nor money or gifts. What i treasure is the memories i have with the people i met, the good times and the bad, the relationships that are forged and the seeing of the lost returning to Christ. These are the things i truly treasure and find joy in + Jesus of course

Well recently when i was off on the battlefield, i went off with a few other comrades and tried to steal some more names from the book of death and put it in the book of life. It was totally fun rescuing people from their prisons, breaking down strongholds, comforting people and leading them to life. All with Jesus of course, no doubts. Unfortunately in the process i realised i accidentally stolen some of their hearts at the same time, which is mundo trouble if you know what i mean. Haiz HELP! hahahahaha

Well the As are coming up, though its supposed to be pressing i aint pressed much for i am confident that i will own it with the help of the Lord while giving my best in preparation of it. Whats more important is not my studies but my growth in the Lord, though i recently awaken or in your terms converged, i have yet to grow accustom to my previous powers so its on its way lah. hahahahahaha
Alright, looks like i got another battle to go to.
For now. Adieu

Half Asleep

2009-10-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

Xup man, its been long since i woke up. But im awakening soon.
To the princess, i forgive you since God forgave both me and you, so yeah im gonna forgive you. So no worries for i will take you back.
Hey though the A levels are coming, i know God is gonna make something revolutionary within me and the school.
You know ACJC is not worth mentioning i would say but since the Lord still loves it and wants the people to be saved, then it must be done nonetheless. hahahahaha
Its really funny sometimes cause love is not something i understand easily but its probably the most complex word i have ever found in my entire life.
After fighting for my life for 17+ years, love to me is what Jesus did, giving Himself for our salvation. Though people claim other forms of love, i still find them unjustified for those are fallible regardless of how they may commit. But i know that the Love God gave is perfect, never failing, never superficial, everlasting and always more than enough for any situation.
MAN I LOVE JESUS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its just totally awesome, so once again i will show something cool also which i done today. I used part of the flame that God gave me to protect some new people even though i havent used it since i decided to go to sleep.
Man i cant wait for my awakening man, when i get my wings and stuff and mastery of my powers its gonna be totally awesome. Watch out for it, its gonna be a bomb!

Woops look at the time, its time to sleep hahahahaha
Later.................

What a day to be back

2009-09-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

Man it is quite nostalgic to be back here again with a capital O
Xup man, the B-man is back and back in action
Though these days it seems the war has not toned down.
Im glad many are finally realising the real situation of this world.
Many a time, Christians do not understand there we do not live in the physical world but also in the spirtual world as well where we do battle against the evil forces of this world. We are in a battle for the souls of the lost and though the war is won already. We have the jobs of setting free the people and teaching and leading them to the right path. We must never be off guard least the enemy attacks, for the devil is like a roaring lion who will pounce on you at any given chance
Therefore i urge you my brothers, not to rely on your own strength but forsake it. Rely on God for only through Him can true strength be called upon. What meaninglessness is the strength and knowledge we have. The wisdom of this world is total rubbish in comparison to the Lord's wisdom. What foolishness it is to boast and assume of yourself.
Though at times i do act in such a foolish way, it is in fact a form for me to reach those who only understand and accept such a wasteful action. Egoism is just a waste of words to bring about humour and to break the ice. It has no insightful wisdom nor any other significant use. However, to use such to boast about the Lord, if the Lord may choose to use such a thing in any way, it will always turn out for the best. That is the unquestionable truth.
Let us brothers and sisters not forget to pray for the freedom and victory in the lives of our brothers and sisters, strengthening them at all times. Know that unless you have reached the perfection that is Christ, we should continue to improve and upgrade ourselves in the Love and Presence of our Lord Jesus Christ. Let us build one another up that in all that we do, we may boost one another on further into the knowledge of Christ Himself, that we may advance further His Kingdom and grow deeper in Him.
Continue my friends and brothers to do good at all times, do not beset yourselves with the worthless treasures of this world that has no value and can be destroyed easily. But rather gather for yourselves the treasures that are eternal that remains in the fire even after gold has melted. Gather love, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, joy, peace and self control which are the fruit of the Spirit as well as hope, righteousness and obedience to the Lord. For each fruit is more precious than any gold or treasure of this earth and even the littlest of this is worth more than all the kings ransoms. Therefore remember to continue to share the gospel with the lost that they may be free from the chains of sins that tie them down and continue to build one another up with love and kindness. This I leave with you till another time.

Later...............

Spiritual gift test

2009-07-12T08:41:00.001-07:00

About Your Spiritual Gifts

Spiritual gifts are tools God gives Christians to do the work of the ministry -- to fulfill the Great Commission to reach, baptize, and teach and to minister to one another. Every Christian receives at least one gift at the moment of salvation. Spiritual gifts are not rewards, are not natural talents, are not a place of service, are not an age-group ministry, and are not a specialty ministry. They express themselves through various ministries which, in turn, accomplish a variety of results. A spiritual gift is the primary channel by which the Holy Spirit ministers through the believer. It is a supernatural capacity for service to God -- and He gives you a supernatural desire to perform the duties of that gift. Spiritual gifts are tools for building the church. They are a source of joy in your Christian life and influence your motives. A spiritual gift is a divine calling with a divine responsibility, because what God has gifted you to do, He has called you to do, and what He has called you to do, He has gifted you to do.
There are three categories of gifts: The Miraculous Gifts, generally known today as Charismatic Gifts; the Enabling Gifts which all Christians have the ability to develop (faith, discernment, wisdom, and knowledge -- qualities possessed rather than activities performed); and Team Gifts which are activity, service, or task-oriented. The Team Gifts are functional and involve speaking or ministering. Chances are, you have several of these gifts that vary in different degrees and intensity. In many cases, spiritual gifts even complement your secular employment. The Spiritual Gifts Analysis you took identified your dominant TEAM GIFTS which will help you find your place on the team in your church. Prayer and serving God will also help you see where God wants you. This profile gives you a simple bar graph showing how all the gifts relate to you and to each other, but analyzes indepth only your dominant and secondary gifts which are the ones that will have greater influence in your life.
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Your dominant gifts are Evangelism, Pastor/Shepherd

The results of your Spiritual Gifts Inventory indicate that your number one dominant gift is EVANGELISM! That does not necessarily mean you are supposed to travel the world, preaching the Gospel. The Greek word "Euangelistes" means to proclaim glad tidings, a messenger of good. It denotes a proclaimer of the Gospel. The evangelist can either be a preacher who stands before a crowd, imploring them to be saved, or perhaps an individual sitting in a living room or on a plane, trying to persuade someone to accept Christ. As an evangelist you have the Spirit-given capacity and desire to serve God by leading people who are beyond your natural sphere of influence to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ. You are sometimes classified as the aggressive soulwinner who seeks the lost.
As an evangelist you are likely very outgoing and personable. You compliment even strangers and are not afraid to ask them questions about their lifestyle - such as where they work, what hobbies they have, what's their favorite sports team, where they were born, and do they attend church. This opens the door to talk about their relationship with Jesus Christ - something you're just itching to do. Be careful not to be too overbearing or you may push some people farther away from Christ.
You have great joy in seeing people come to Christ and are often consumed with the desire to confront sinners with the Gospel. You urge other Christians to do the same by directly telling them they must win souls or by encouraging them by telling about your most recent experience. However, you must be careful not to belittle them or make them feel unspiritual because they do not have the burden for lost souls like you do.
You probably have memorized Scripture so you are not caught "empty-handed" while witnessing. Rather than waiting for opportunities to present the Gospel, the evangelist often makes opportunities. Since you will influence so many people, you must be careful to live in such a manner that you do not bring reproach upon your message. For instance, if you influence 30 people and only one of them accepts Christ immediately, the other 29 are left to be harvested later (by you or someone else). If you were to fall spiritually, your life's witness may negatively influence those 29 onlookers against Christianity.
If you are a new Christian, you may want to begin using your gift by providing prospects to seasoned evangelists and giving testimonies to those you knew before you were saved. Perhaps you could pair up with an experienced evangelist to follow up on prospects and visit strangers for the purpose of reaching them for Christ.
If you are a more mature Christian, with experience in evangelizing, take a new Christian "evangelist" under your wing. Share your experiences with him or her and provide encouragement. Continue to look for opportunities to share the Gospel and lead souls to Christ.
Other people may tend to think you are pushy, that you are more interested in numbers than people, and that you judge their spirituality by the number of souls thay have won. Beware that Satan can attack your gift by causing pride in your number of converts, causing failure to grow and learn, causing you to see people as numbers rather than people with needs, causing discouragement when converts are few or infrequent, and causing a lack of concern for Bible passages that cannot be used as "soulwinning texts."
HOW CAN YOU USE YOUR DOMINANT GIFT? There are many avenues in which you can carry out the gift of evangelism. Visitation programs are the most obvious. You may enjoy visiting juvenile detention centers or jails, going door-to-door, going to orphanages and shelters for women or the homeless, and of course, following up on visitors in their homes. Your gift is a plus for leading people to Christ during an invitation or altar call. You could participate in special evangelistic efforts, such as fairs and other events. Your gift also fits well in church planting, on Gospel teams, in migrant ministry, men's or women's conferences, and many public speaking ministries.
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The results of your Spiritual Gifts Inventory indicate that your second dominant gift is PASTORING/SHEPHERDING! The Greek word "poimen" means pastor. In Paul's spiritual gifts listing in Ephesians 4:11, this term is translated "pastor." Although the word "poimen" is translated pastor only one time in Scripture it is used sixteen additional times. The remaining sixteen are all translated "shepherd." Therefore, we are actually discussing the GIFT of shepherding, not the POSITION of pastor. Though a good pastor must have the gift of shepherding, everyone who has the gift of shepherding is not called to be pastor. The gift can be used in many positions in a church.
As a gifted shepherd, you have the Spirit-given capacity and desire to serve God by overseeing, training, and caring for the needs of a group of Christians. You are usually very patient, people-centered, and willing to spend time in prayer for others. You tend to be a "Jack of All and Master of ONE," meaning you are usually dominant in one of the speaking gifts (evangelist, prophet, teacher, exhorter) as well. You are often authoritative, more a leader than a follower, and expressive, composed, and sensitive. Your pleasing personality draws people to you.
You have a burden to see others learn and grow and are protective of those under your care. You want to present the whole Word of God and do not like to present the same materials more than once. You are willing to study what is necessary to feed your group and are more relationship oriented than task oriented. You are a peace-maker and diplomat - very tolerant of people's weaknesses. You tend to remember people's names and faces. You are more concerned with doing for others than others doing for you. You are faithful and devoted and may become a workaholic. You can become an all-purpose person in order to meet needs.
People with the gift of shepherding make the best Sunday school teachers and group leaders because their desire is to go beyond just teaching or leading, to shepherd and minister to the daily needs of their students. The position of Sunday school teacher or group leader is an extension of the pastoral ministry in the church. These groups should be shepherded on a small scale the same as the pastor shepherds the whole congregation on a large scale.
Be careful to involve other people; don't try to do it all yourself. Work on making people accountable. Do not be overly protective of your "flock." Because of these potentially weak areas, other people may think it is your job to do all the work; they rely too heavily on you. You may be expected to be available at all times, know all the answers, and be at every function. Learn when to say no.
Beware of Satan's attack on your gift. He will cause discouragement when the load gets heavy, and pride because your "sheep" look up to you. You may develop family problems because of too little time and attention. You may become selfish when "sheep" feed in other pastures.
HOW CAN YOU USE YOUR GIFT? This gift is a great help in many areas. You may serve as a Sunday school teacher, small group leader, pastor or assistant pastor, bus captain, special ministry leader (such as youth, children, men, etc.), nursery worker or as a half-way house or other type shelter volunteer. You may consider serving as a dormitory leader in a college, orphanage, children's home, etc. Scout troops would appreciate your assistance as a den leader.

Words of wisdom 12

2008-12-29T05:24:00.000-08:00

1. Some people say that as you grow older, you'll mature
I say bull to that cause that is not true
I have tested it and can clearly say that its is not the age that defines your maturity but your choice to grow
From a young age of 12, i decided to delve into the affairs of the adult world to enhance my knowledge of life to find out whether there is meaning to it.
Amongst the religions, philosophies, histories and personalities i have met, tested and experimented
In man, or created by man, worth any time or minute in life
In this world, there is no treasure but junk, pure worthless junk compared to what i have found now.
This is the typical mentality of a typical adult who goes about life knowing this and trying to escape with no hope of possibly doing so on his own. Therefore most likely he will either accept it pessimistically , suicide, religion, apathetic cowardly atheist to try things new.
This is what the world counts as secular maturity
This is easily achieved within 3 months as that is what it took me when i was 12

Now about character, that takes time to build up. Secular wisdom takes a short amount of time to build but the wisdom that comes from heaven will take longer than a life to learn, let alone master.

For one to become mature as the world states and views, which is the view of human
One would have to be well verse in the ways of the world and understand how it works

But as truth and reality states that knowing that, we need to lead those in the area to life, which can only be found in Jesus. The treasures in heaven are definately better than that on earth, and that is said and is true. Tested by those who have passed and went in not on, true maturity i would say would be that a person knowing what is reality and acting to save it and reach out to those in need and lead them to true life which can only be Jesus Christ the Son of God.

Later.....

2008-12-10T06:38:00.000-08:00

Xup man, here am i once again
You know i planned to be the best there ever is
Why? be better than other ya da ya da and other typical human reasons

NO! I wanna become the best that i may please the Lord, whoever else i may displease doesnt matter to me.

I am a serious guy
I mean what i say and i say what i mean
Even when i joke i am serious
When im serious i joke
Im a serious joker who tells serious jokes
Im serious

Whether you're better or whether im better at some stuff
To me it doesnt matter, for if you got something i dont have
I want to learn it till i perfect it ( except the bad stuff and sin stuff)
If you want something i got, i'll gladly share it with you
That is who i am
That is who i will be

Later.......

Knight and Prince

2008-12-03T08:21:00.000-08:00

Xup man its been long but here i am once again hahaha
Now listen here my man
Im not the knight that you people dream of
Being prince charming and rescuing you from the villian
Well in today's term, you dont see much of captured princess and me doing the rescuing
Hahaaha
But im an a knight for Christ
I may not rescue you from a physical villian but i will rescue you through leading you off the path of destruction to the path of life
I tell you my man, love aint i free you and you marry me like in cartoons.( though good fantasy...NO)
Its is said, that " Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13
That will be the love will show you
That you will find life and accept it and life to the fullest
You say thats bull
Yeah i know where you're coming from, but look at me. I'm a living testimony to that life
Yep, this aint no fairytail you can only believe in, but this one's real and true too.

Then you ask, why am i a prince?
Oh simple, but surrending my life to Jesus
He accepts me now as His son, so since he's the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords
That makes a prince. Cool huh?
Through that i have cast off my old dead self for the one you see now
This does not mean i lost my personality, but rather the opposite.
I finally revive my real self because of Him, now i am alive. Cool right?
Yeah i know, if you wanna know more, you can call me
My number is on the profile
Later dudes and dudettes.........

King not the Joker

2008-11-18T06:47:00.000-08:00

Xup man, its been long, so im being short
I kinda forgot what i was gonna talk about
But listen carefully for now
As time pass by
So does age will flow
Through the streams of life we see
The treasures and thoughts of our mind
Unless we act to the Will of God
So will we miss and lose these precious thoughts

Later........

2008-09-27T04:07:00.000-07:00

Xup man, service was awesome today
But today im gonna share with you guys a cool testimony right now right here

Its was during the preparation for my chemistry paper, i was totally nervous even though i memorized the applications and the theory for the whole syallbus this year. I was afraid so i did my ten years series questions and i only managed to score most of the answers so i was relieved for that moment. Until i looked at term exam paper, i panicked.
I remembered the truma i had that even with all the memory work for chemistry, i failed it very badly and was afraid that i would not be able to answer the questions correctly. I prayed than for faith that my fear would not clobber my faith but my faith would clobber my fear. Then God told me dont worry, it will be ok. I was still kind of doubtful, so i tried hanging out with my friends and quizzing each other on chemistry. I managed to answer the questions accordingly but i was still afraid of my chemistry test.
When my chemistry test came, i was afraid that i would not be able to finish all the questions and get my A. So i prayed once more for courage and strength to overcome. The advice my teacher gave was certain time limits for each paper, and i was totally nervous for that.
So when i finished my MCQs i did not know how to do some, so i was kind of scared that i did not have time to check. Then i looked at my section C and wanted to give up, then God told me loudly. DONT GIVE UP, DO YOUR BEST AND OVERCOME.
Then i got the message, so i calmed myself down and did section B and it turned out not to be as scary as i thought it to be. THANK GOD
But when i had finished it, i only had about 40 mins to do my section C and check. It was totally scary, so i like rushed through the whole thing and finally finished it with 10 mins remaining. However i had to do my OAS sheet and i only had 5 mins to check through all 3 sections. I wanted to give up again. Then God told me. DONT GIVE UP, GIVE ME YOUR BEST.
Then i asked Him, what should i check?
Then he told me section B
So i checked through most of section B and was not able to check all.
But i gave it my best and praised God with all my might singing this song

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

2008-09-14T08:05:00.001-07:00

Xup man, im in ACJC now and Our plan is REVIVAL

i urge you my fellow brothers and sisters, pray for us, pray for the revival that is coming to happen
As we fight, the principalities of this world will come against Us, but We are Revolutionists and We will fight for the souls of all who are lost.
I tell you the truth my friends, there is no such thing as a carnal Christian. When you have a relationship with Christ, you will automatically repent. I'm not saying here that i expect you to become Jesus immediately, but its expected that your life is shaped according to Christ. If you tell me its slow, i'll slap you and say, NO. Its slow because you choose to.

Our Christian walk with God is not dependant on the circumstances. Its dependant on ourselves. We choose how fast or how slow it will be. And i pray that all of you in this depraved generation would come and seek after God with all you got. Persecutions are NOT obstacles that will hinder your growth, rather, they are oppertunities for you to spur on ahead
For it is said in Matthew 5:10
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven
Matthew 5:10
It did not say cursed are those who are persecuted but BLESSED
Why? The pain is there, the persecution is there but why?
Its because when we are persecuted, it gives us the oppertunity to show how much we love God. To what extent do we give our lives to Him
Matthew 13:21
But since he has no root, he lasts only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, he quickly falls away.
Matthew 13:21
What is our root? Is your root Jesus who holds you firm, or it is just meaningless words spoken out of your mouth? Check yourself, question yourself
I urge you my friends, seek first His Kingdom and all His righteousness and all this things shall be added onto you(Matthew 6:33

If your root is not Jesus. I urge you, i beg of you, repent and return to Him. Be reconciled, for He loves you beyond all measure with an everlasting love.
If you want to have Jesus as your root, as your Lord and Savior, join me in this prayer
I tell you, dont say it if you dont believe it. Dont say it if you dont mean it. I beg of you, dont waste your life on things that will fade away, dont walk away just knowing that this is this and that is that.
I BEG OF YOU, RECONCILE BACK WITH GOD

If you want to say it and believe it, dont do it for the sake of doing it but do it because you want to. I tell you, saying this prayer only will not justify that you are a Christian, believing it and acting out your life will justify your words

If you are ready, say this
" Jesus, i know you are God and that You loved me. I know and believe you died and rose again for me . I ask that you forgive me of my sins and teach me to repent from them. I invite you now into my life and thank you for all that you've done. In Jesus Name. Amen"

Now if you want to talk to someone or need a listening ear for you, i tell you that i am ready to give you to the time you need. If you dont want to talk to me, then i ask you find another mature spiritual older Christian to talk to, like a Pastor.
My contacts are on my profile page

May God bless you

2008-08-09T09:07:00.000-07:00

Xup man, now im gonna talk on a very scary topic
James 4:4

All who opposes God be small or big is my enemy, regardless of family, bonds, wife, friends government or anything in existence.
Regardless of who, i will procure out the judgement given by the Lord
Those who come against us will be swept away and destroyed completely, never to rise from the ashes along with the devils of this world
Anyone that comes against the Lord comes against me, anyone who wants to be an enemy of the Lord is my enemy, those who hurt the Lord, hurt me. Comprende?

This is the first warning to everyone out there.

Later.........

2008-08-05T08:21:00.000-07:00

You guys should know the risks when you make a commitment.
Live your words and dont hold back people.
When you say you're gonna save the world, PROVE IT
When you say you're gonna save the school, PROVE IT
When you say you're gonna save your friends and family, PROVE IT

Words are powerful, my friend
Especially God's Word
When He spoke, light was formed, animals and you were created out of nothing!, waters were seperated and so on. This is how powerful words are
You are God's children
Do you think your words dont have power? Sure they dont if you dont USE IT

Whether your motives are right are one thing, but the words you say reflect your motives and your heart. You cant curse and tell me that you have that intention, it is shown clearly, my man.

Matthew 15:10-11
Jesus called the crowd to him and said, "Listen and understand. What goes into a man's mouth does not make him 'unclean,' but what comes out of his mouth, that is what makes him 'unclean.'
Matthew 15:10-11
Matthew 15:17-20
Don't you see that whatever enters the mouth goes into the stomach and then out of the body? 18But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man 'unclean.' For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. These are what make a man 'unclean'; but eating with unwashed hands does not make him 'unclean.' ""
Matthew 15:17-20

Check Mark 7:14-20
It says also the same thing

What your motives are will show.
Let me ask, why would i waste my time that i can use to do other stuff, to rebuke you when you repeatedly do something wrong?
Am i rebuking you out of love or out of hate an spite that what you're doing is better than me?
Some of the stuff, yes will hurt you for the moment, to be precise, it will hurt your pride and status, but it will never harm you but build you up instead.
On whether you choose to be built up and become stronger or remain hurt and become weaker is your choice that i cannot make. That is your free will.

Make your stand my friends, you are either for God or against God. There is no neutral line.
You can love and harm your friends at that the same time? Neither can you serve both God and money, if God isnt what you seek after, you will not find Him. If you ask you will receive, if you seek you will find, if you knock, the door will be open. But as it says in Matthew 7:7
Its your choice to seek or not.

Later............

2008-07-27T07:52:00.000-07:00

Xup people, its time to get going
Life aint gonna get better if you guys are gonna stay the same.
Butter up and fight man, this is an age of war where we fight for the souls of others.
And we are not allowed to participate in the war until we are ready.

I tell you guys this, if you want to know your purpose in life now, you got to be ready.
The Lord wont sent you out unless you are prepared to fulfill your purpose.
Look at me for example, i only was ready to hear the Lord after being 15 years of being a Christian and after about 6 months i was assigned my purpose after being thoroughly trained.
If you guys want to go out there and fight, connect to the source who is the Lord God Almighty Jesus Christ.
If people cant see love in you, how can you prove yourself to be a Christian.
We are representative of Christ who are images of Him to everyone around us. If they cant see Christ in us, how then are we being a good image?

If you want to be ready, seek ye first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things shall be added onto you.
Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:33-34
How can you do that?
1. Involve God with everything you do
Not just in the big things like exams, prayer meetings, quiet time. But involve Him with the small things like studying together, going on a date, watch a movie together, play games together, chill out and hang out together, ask Him out with your friends too and the list goes on.
Are you afraid to talk to Him when your friends are around?
Dont be, why should you be ashamed to hide him from your friends. Do you hate them so much that you dont want them to experience the Presence and Love of God?
Some excuses, oh it will stumble them, oh it will be embarrasing ya da ya da
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS GOD WHEN YOU DO THAT YOU LITTLE BLESSINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. Fulfill and claim your promises that the Lord has given to you
Why reject it?
You say, oh i dont i always claim it.
Then prove it.
Lets take Matthew 28:20, the part where it says and "surely I am with you to the very end of the age."
You know that God is omnipresence and is always near you. Then why do you not claim that?
Why do you when you know God is with you, dont you speak with and of Him, why you do you not ask Him for advice on what to say or on what to do? Is your decision always so righteous!

Come on people, wake up and claim your promises, you have a purpose. Even if this words cannot show the tone that i speak with. Know that this is not something to hurt you, but rather for you to understand who you are in Christ and live it. It is easier for me not to tell you but its better that you hear it. I have my own weakness and i have my own strengths but this is what we all should do and is to seek the Lord with all we got and to rely on Him always.
The only proof that we are Christians is by Jesus. If a person cant see Jesus in you, how will you then be able to testify yourself as a Christian.
Dont fall people but stand and live the life that you were called to live and live it to the fullest.

Later.......

2008-07-21T05:50:00.000-07:00

Xup man
This term has been quite hectic for me
What are Christians really doing nowdays
On the basic of basic, why do i not see Christ in most people
Some fuzzy, some clear and some none at all
Its irritating to see people hurt my Father

Lord, i really need your help
Whom can i turn to but the Lord
For all fails and hope is lost,
Tis the Lord is the One i turn to
The Solid Rock and Strong Foundation
That is my Lord God Almighty Jesus Christ

If you cant seek the Lord in good times, i wonder how people will fair in hard times
Nowdays in school, i see hypocrites calling themselves Christians as well as Christians cowering in fear of the teachers who abuse their power.
Its disgusts me,
For a man who has died and lived again, i have no regard to the name i once had but to the name i wear now i take great effort to live up

I tell you this, whoever that comes against me that isnt from God, i will definately cut them down with the Lord.
He who is with me is definately greater than he who is in the world, and is definately stronger than any power on earth.
Some people tell not to challenge the evil forces of the spiritual realm.
But i tell you, by invading their realm and freeing the Lord's people, that is a declaration of war against them.
I am not by myself anymore, but We are in a war
You are not in an ordinary world man, you are called for more than this
What good is doing this and that and saying all the hypocritical words when you're life testifies against you.
If you call yourself a Christian. Prove it.
If you cant prove it to us, how can you prove it to those who are blind?

Maps and plans

2008-06-23T06:32:00.001-07:00

You dont see people in maps or blueprints
You see the course of action and the terrain you are in
You dont see people or who they are inside
Thats not on any maps i know for sure

Blueprints are just a piece of paper with instructions with what to do,
there is no people, that is no connection
its cold and heartless

Plans are made that involved people
but unless you can see them properly
Your plans are not different from the world

God is great
He is awesome and Almighty
He makes plans that never fail
and never for the harm of us

He is Good
The Creator and the Great Almighty
Jesus

People are not plans or projects
They are creation of God. I do not see them as a goal or an item to gain
They are people who need to be saved not to be gained for yourself
All glory goes to God regardless whether you fail or you pass, you win or you lose
God RULEZ no matter what

Can you seek His Kingdom first and put your plans aside
Can you trust in Him with all you got even if the world says its dangerous
Yes its dangerous, not to trust in the Lord is truly dangerous
Can you put yourself aside and the people you plan to save to the Lord
Can you leave behind everything for the glory of the Lord
Can you lose yourself for the Lord
Jesus can
I will
He never fails
so why should i choose to fail
If He never faltered, so will i choose not to falter regardless
Hard and "impossible" by humans
but We are together

Learn and live humbly and seek Him first above all
You only need 1 not 2
You cant seek after God and money nor can you seek after God and everything else at the same time
You got to choose 1
Make your choice
Choose your side
The one on the fence is the same as the enemy
If you side yourself with the enemy, you will be regarded with the enemy, and receive what is due.

2008-05-31T21:56:00.000-07:00

Xup man, heres a little cool stuff i found during the perfume making hour
In 2 Kings 7
Elisha said, "Hear the word of the LORD. This is what the LORD says: About this time tomorrow, a seah ^[a] of flour will sell for a shekel ^[b] and two seahs ^[c] of barley for a shekel at the gate of Samaria."

2 The officer on whose arm the king was leaning said to the man of God, "Look, even if the LORD should open the floodgates of the heavens, could this happen?"
"You will see it with your own eyes," answered Elisha, "but you will not eat any of it!"

The Siege Lifted

3 Now there were four men with leprosy ^[d] at the entrance of the city gate. They said to each other, "Why stay here until we die? 4 If we say, 'We'll go into the city'-the famine is there, and we will die. And if we stay here, we will die. So let's go over to the camp of the Arameans and surrender. If they spare us, we live; if they kill us, then we die."

5 At dusk they got up and went to the camp of the Arameans. When they reached the edge of the camp, not a man was there, 6 for the Lord had caused the Arameans to hear the sound of chariots and horses and a great army, so that they said to one another, "Look, the king of Israel has hired the Hittite and Egyptian kings to attack us!" 7 So they got up and fled in the dusk and abandoned their tents and their horses and donkeys. They left the camp as it was and ran for their lives.

8 The men who had leprosy reached the edge of the camp and entered one of the tents. They ate and drank, and carried away silver, gold and clothes, and went off and hid them. They returned and entered another tent and took some things from it and hid them also.

9 Then they said to each other, "We're not doing right. This is a day of good news and we are keeping it to ourselves. If we wait until daylight, punishment will overtake us. Let's go at once and report this to the royal palace."

10 So they went and called out to the city gatekeepers and told them, "We went into the Aramean camp and not a man was there—not a sound of anyone—only tethered horses and donkeys, and the tents left just as they were." 11 The gatekeepers shouted the news, and it was reported within the palace.

12 The king got up in the night and said to his officers, "I will tell you what the Arameans have done to us. They know we are starving; so they have left the camp to hide in the countryside, thinking, 'They will surely come out, and then we will take them alive and get into the city.' "

13 One of his officers answered, "Have some men take five of the horses that are left in the city. Their plight will be like that of all the Israelites left here—yes, they will only be like all these Israelites who are doomed. So let us send them to find out what happened."

14 So they selected two chariots with their horses, and the king sent them after the Aramean army. He commanded the drivers, "Go and find out what has happened." 15 They followed them as far as the Jordan, and they found the whole road strewn with the clothing and equipment the Arameans had thrown away in their headlong flight. So the messengers returned and reported to the king. 16 Then the people went out and plundered the camp of the Arameans. So a seah of flour sold for a shekel, and two seahs of barley sold for a shekel, as the LORD had said.

17 Now the king had put the officer on whose arm he leaned in charge of the gate, and the people trampled him in the gateway, and he died, just as the man of God had foretold when the king came down to his house. 18 It happened as the man of God had said to the king: "About this time tomorrow, a seah of flour will sell for a shekel and two seahs of barley for a shekel at the gate of Samaria."

19 The officer had said to the man of God, "Look, even if the LORD should open the floodgates of the heavens, could this happen?" The man of God had replied, "You will see it with your own eyes, but you will not eat any of it!" 20 And that is exactly what happened to him, for the people trampled him in the gateway, and he died.

This is what i've learned from this
1.If you dont believe the Word of God, it aint gonna do you good
- 2 Kings 7:19-20

2. Unless you are desperate for God, you wont get anything except death
Take the people with the sickness, unless they were desperate to live, they would die
They were desperate for life, they desperate to do something about their situation and God used them in His Plan
, Now thats cool yo

3. Whatever good stuff you got, you gotta share it with your friends.
Testimonies, Salvation, Good news, happiness, joy anything good
2 Kings 7:9
If not, punishment will overtake you
Its not good to keep all the good stuff to yourself without letting others know about your joy and God's Glory in your life. You gotta shout it loud man, so all will hear.
No one keeps good news to himself. He tells the whole world about it.
Like when you get full marks for an exam, you go bonkers and shout it out to everyone
If you can go bonkers over something soooo small, you can go crazy for God

4. There will be people who will try to discourage you
2 Kings 7:12
They will say the worst stuff that could happen even with the truth in their face
In every situation, this will happen FOR SURE.
It could be anyone including your families, your friends, you're best pal, except God

5. Now very important thing
God's Words always come through even if it may be talking about something far away, and whether you believe it or not, it will come through.
2 Kings 7:17-20
He said a seah of flour will sell for a shekel and 2 seahs of barley will sell for a shekel in Samaria
And thats what happen.
In modern terms, it would be like God saying that the price of rice will drop to a dollar for a bag and the price of fruit lets say, will drop to a dollar for 2 bags. And IT HAPPENS
Something like that, thats would be a modern day example

Dont trust your words man nor your friends when they speak from themselves and when you speak. Trust the words of the Lord and follow it whomever and whatever it may come. The Bible, your friends, yourself, or anyone or anything that God uses.

Remember man, truth without God hurts - thats facts
Truth with God builds
Rely on God not on man, and you grow.
Live this out and you'll never worry about much things. Seek first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added onto you. Matthew 6:33
Apply it for everything.
Ask God what he wants to do and follow
E.g When you study
You dont spend time on praying God give me full marks
You can pray that but dont do it for 24 hours unless God says so
You should ask God, hey buddy, teach to study properly and help me study it properly too k?
and YOU STUDY the way He wants you too. Got it?

Later..........

Life and the questions you've been wondering about

2008-05-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

If i was to talk about the stories i read and the knowledge i had, it would be a waste of time.
For what good if i talk about the everyday things that i already know.
It would be far better if We talked about the stuff that i could not see, the stuff that no one heard and the stuff that none could comprehend except the Lord.
I read everyday stories and i find them a bore for i have lived each of that lives and found it a waste of my time. Seriously, you people dont go and be all emos and cut yourselves. Its not right and you and I and Him both know that it doesnt solve anything does it?

Qn 1. Why do you not live a victorious life, why isnt being a Christian exciting? How come its getting monotonous and sooo boring.
Simple reason. You're not living it out.
Try this. For every verse in the Bible live it out.
Rule 1. No killing people just because people killed them in the bible. They did that because they were called to. Not because God had no mercy, but it was because it had to be done. Even though God did not want to, you forced Him to, not by force but by the sins that demanded justice.

Take Matthew 6:33-34
Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added onto you. Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Matthew 6:33-34
Just take that and live that out for 1 day. Can you even go 1 day living that out?
If you really dont know how to.............Ask God to let you.
How? Simple just speak the words and mean it. "God, let me live this verse to seek you above all things and not to worry about anything."

Please note people that worry and awareness is 2 DIFFERENT THINGS.
Worry is going oh dear what am i going to do. Im doomed
Aware is knowing that if you dont do it, you're gonna get punished.
E.g A worried person will go ahhhhhhhhhh i havent done my homework. Im gonna die and he Doesn't do it
A person whose awared will go, ok i have homework due and i havent done it. There's not enough time now, so God, please help me with this and help me complete it. AND HE DOES IT.
See the difference.
Just on this alone, live out God's Word and apply it. Then only will you see its power come through in YOUR Life.
Then you will see your life being revolutionize to the max

If you do not believe me, Try it then

If you find that this is a lie and im lying.
Look Us in the eye and tell Us that We're lying.

Later........

Spiritual warefare 101

2008-05-08T05:08:00.000-07:00

Xup man, welcome to spiritual warefare 101
Now for today, there will be 3 things i'll be talking about
1. Love
2. Faith
3. Obedience and Desperation

1. Now for love
Love is not something said, talk is cheap
Neither is love stupid
It does not make you stupid like what the cartoons say and you go all goo ga ga
but its make you more mature and understanding of others and your surroundings
Love builds
It does not destroy, but strengthens you in life, in spirit and in loving others

Now the opposite of love is not apathy, nor is it hate
Its SIN!!!!
You cant say you love God and dont obey Him,
Thats hypocrisy
Many people of us fall away because we forget the reason why we are here
We are still alive not because of what we've done but because the Lord Jesus loved us first, that is why He bought our lives that we may be free once again
Our mission, Our PURPOSE In Life is not to make friends, gain money, go do some stupid religion and ya da ya da.
If Christanity was a religion, i'll slap the people and wake them up
CAUSE ITS NOT!!!!! REGARDLESS OF WHAT PEOPLE SAY
The Fact remains, its a relationship
You dont do this and do that and you grow in this and that
It never was
Its like you relationship with your best pals
Where God talks you, you talk back, He tells you stuff you listen
You tell Him stuff, He listens
People bully you, God defends you and so on.......
Its a relationship, its a frienship, its a love relationship with Him and nothing more

Some people say love leads to sex
Bryan says NO and its very obvious
LOVE does not = Sex
Love is caring for another
Sacrificing yourself for another
For No greater love than this that he lay down his life for another
John 15:13

Do you get it now? You are not saved than put here without a purpose
Even those who dont know Jesus or reject Him
They have a purpose, everyone has a purpose in life which is found only in Christ. Got it?
Dont believe? Even if you search until time end, you'll never find it unless you ask God.
Simple as that. This applies to everyone young old, baby, ahama, and so on.....

Reads Psalms 118
It talks about being radical and the way to live your life, giving a description of life itself
If you dont understand you can find me but the best way is ASK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is a relationship, you ask, He speaks, you just gotta to listen. If you listen for sound, you might not get it, if you listen to His voice, you will hear Him.
Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added onto you
Matthew 6:33
This includes hearing God's voice

Now faith
Yes its powerful, faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains.
Have you tried?
Yeah yeah i know you say you are faithful and stuff, go on and I'll sleep(seriously)
Its doesnt matter how faithful you claim to be
Its how faithful you actually choose to be that counts
Mean your words, if you say you'll die for God, mean it and keep to it
Dont give excuses, (Bryan is the official complain manager, for excuses, please tell him your excuse and you'll get five slaps in the face, 10 wake up calls and if you're lucky you get double to package deal to wake you up to reality)
Faith is like taking a risk,
If you dont choose to come out of your imaginary world into reality, you'll never know what life has in stored for you
Online games, i've played them
I played all kinds of consoles and every genre of games including horror,
I've listen to every kind of music
I heard every single boring speech and tasteless jokes and lies
And i have found them a waste of my time
Pranks, you got to be kidding me
God on the other hand has something more for you
You know in online games, you become the main character and you gain all sorts of techniques, weapons, gears and you get to fight one another, raid strongholds, rescue people, fight demons yada yada
You get to do that in real life too
That is what happens in real life you nut
You are the main character of your life
Your weapons, techniques, strength and stats all come from God
Going alone is like going naked into enemy territory
Going with God and His army to rescue people, break strongholds, fight demons and so on
That is life
You dont have Jesus, you wont survive. Seriously
Take it from a former antagonist, who turned into a serious Christian

For you to gain all this stuff, you need 3. Desperation and obedience
Yes you say you are desperate for God to change your life
Prove it, words mean nothing if you dont do it.
The question i ask you, you are desperate but HOW desperate ARE YOU?
Do you want your family saved?
Do you want to see people healed?
Do you want to have great testimonies
Fill up the gap in your life?
Live out your purpose and your life to the full extent?
Revolutionize your life and the lives of the people around you?
Then you need to be obedient to Jesus

2 Corinthians 10:4-5
The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
2 Corinthians 10:4-5
How desperate must you be, you ask?
You must be desperate enough to live with Him
That you would gladly give up your life to Him and let Him take FULL control
Im not saying get brainwashed and keep saying Praise the Lord everyday
But follow His Will and whatever he calls you to do
You got to be desperate to hear from Him that every moment without Him, even for a second, you would lose your will to live.
That is how desperate and more you should be
this is just an example.

You must be willing to risk everything of the Lord to follow Him and He will lead you through.
Got it?
Good.
Later
Any questions, you may contact me but preferably contact Jesus first.
Later.............

What kind of doctor or DIT would Bryan be

2008-04-06T00:20:00.001-07:00

Xup man
What kind of doctor or DIT(Doctor in training) would you describe Bryan as?

When i think about it, i think about being a crazy radical Christian doctor
I dont think i will be the type who conforms to just one way, but maybe all ways?
Im not sure but when i think about it, it becomes kinda funny
Curing people whom specialists cant cure
and mainly healing them when the Lord chooses to heal them.
Wouldnt it be funny if an 8 hour operation just finishes after praying for someone who requires a lot medication and has a long term illness or a crazily severe injury?
Hahahaha
It would be, hahahaha

I wonder what would happen next
You know, even when you know the gist of what will happen to you in the future, theres still a lot of stuff you dont know and that makes it ultra exciting
Probably if i did not have the Lord, my future occupation would be disturbing
Hey you know, its funny to see almost all of you guys worry and panic while i just stay calm and laugh, hahahaha
Dont know why, but cant you just trust the Lord when He says something. Just believe it.
Thats trust
Yes i know faith is something like trust but its not Trust itself
How bout this, next time when the Lord tells you something, trust in it and let go of all worry to it. Im not saying being unaware of the whole thing, but im saying that you should just be aware of the whole situation. If the Lord is handling it, do you part and dont worry already, IF NOT!!!!
You get white hairs like me, hahahahahahaha.

Sometimes you guys really crack me up with human intelligence as in seriously, its ultra funny when you claim to trust the Lord but always of what happens next
Remember that in Proverbs 3:5-6
It says : " Trust in the Lord and lean not upon your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight"

See the part ACKNOWLEDGE HIM ?
So how by worrying about something that is in His hands acknowledging Him
Isnt by trusting Him to do His part in His plan acknowledging Him?

Bryan sees the people reading this with their mouths open and is going " hahahahahahahahahahaha, yo, hahahahahaha
Ok enough laughing, well thats all today Yo
Later.......

2008-03-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

Xup man, you nutz people
You know i've been thinking
Am i the only guy around you still burning hot for Jesus?
Yeah guess, what we just conquered another soul for Jesus. Yeah
He just ignited the flame and BOOM, there was a spiritual explosion in my pal Jeremy's life
He had an encounted with Jesus

Do you still remember how you felt when you first met Jesus?
Take that and multiply with the numbers of days that is left until eternity
COME ON PEOPLE
THIS AINT NO RELIGION
You dont do this, and do that and you're done you nutzzi people
This is a relationship
Unless you can tell me a complete autobiography on Jesus Christ
I dont think you're anywhere near done

You think you've been persecuted too much?
Family pesecution, people persecution
Jesus shed blood till the end of His life and He still did not give up
What about you?

I have not even begun to shed blood
Yet with all my limbs aching and my chest injured till the point that i could not breathe properly
I still am praising and worshiping Him
Who are you who got just a puny persecution to give up?
You think you're too weak?
God uses the weak the shame the strong, He uses the foolish to shame the wise
If you're weak, good for you
Cause you can become and awesome testimony

You think you're done?
Many people from the past who are now in heaven in the great cloud of witness are still cheering you on to finish your race
No matter how tough you are or weak you are
No matter how painful the burdens and trials may be
Who are you to stop? YOU GOT PEOPLE CHEERING YOU ON
You got people up there who stood their faith to the very end
WHO DID NOT EVEN COMPROMISE

Revelations 12:11
They overcame him with the blood of the Lamb and the word of their testimony, THEY DID NOT LOVE THEIR LIVES SO MUCH TO SHRINK FROM DEATH.

You think thats the past?
look at me then
I who have faced persecution from school, classes, other schools, family
I am always hurt by people every day, from class, school, family, parents, cousins, chuch people, Christians, people whom i dont even know, teachers and much more
You think because of that i'll be stupid enough to throw my life away
After finally having a relationship with the One who loves me and you SO MUCH?!:?!?
Think again. I am not that stupid to hurt the One who loves me regardless

Even though sometimes i may fail, but i will get back up on my feet
I have not only committed the worst crimes in history but more than that,
If you counted thoughts that as actions, nothing would have been left if i had not met Jesus when i was born.
I was probably the ugliest most evil person you ever met, but since i met the Lord, i am saved and kicking satan's butt from that day
Literally

If I who kept on worshipping the Lord until the day of my death and was rewarded with a new life, and still worships my Father here. What about you

I dont care what you have done in the past, i dont care if you're a Christian or non Christian
What matters is what are you gonna do now with your life.
1. You can continue living your life as whoever you are now in the end unfortunately never know what its like to feel loved completely to the brim and have the gap in your life filled.
2. You can choose to accept God's love for you and know what it is to be with Jesus always, to have your life renewed and BAAM. Experience what its like to dwell in the Presence of the Lord God Almighty Jesus Christ.

Anyone who wants to know about how i died physically and came back to life
I have a medical report stating that i had overstrained heart muscles in december which was confirmed by a doctor in the the old commonwealth clinic in singapore which has just moved to the queen's close flyover. Its somewhere in the singapore medical database.
+ Eyewitnesses from my church of having a heart failure as well as my parents and the sms in my phone. Hahahahaha

2008-03-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

Xup man, well its back again but to blog about today
YEAH!!!
Today's knights' outing was a success
Good job given to wei xiong on his part of the event
Nothing else to say but improvements but
This has actually taught me something about the verse that says iron sharpens iron
Proverbs 27:17
You know, wei xiong and i were actually cycling buddies
But during the first part, even though he did not know how to cycle, we were quite efficient
Well, i did most of the work and got injured

Then he started peddling himself, doing most of the work while i was doing little to rest my kneecap, but then he got tired afterwards.

But slowly, later on we worked together in a state i called sychronisation or synchro for short
Yeah i was the one who like fast speeds and the wind in my face while wei xiong was the fun one or the radar one who kept track on the rest
It was a good team
Because we were synchro, we managed to be faster than the rest while allowing my injury to heal
Thank Jesus that he helped with the healing part
Go Jesus

You see, when you go together as a team, you aint no duoist anymore but ya a trio
You, your pal and Jesus
3 people, yeah

Well thats all for today, so hope ya got part of this
Yeah hahahaha
Later...........

No greater love than this that he lay down his life

2008-02-22T08:35:00.000-08:00

No greater love than this that he lay down his life for another.
You know i've been thinking, what is the fuel for my passion
Why am i able to feel the presence of God even when others may not
And We've found this
Its because i chose to keep my focus on God
Not on audible voices, not on songs or people
Cause this are worthless compared to spending time with Him
It doesnt matter how much fun i get,
It doesnt matter what kind of attention i get, but whats important is i keep my relationship the way it is always and forever with Him
And that will never change
My Father sees my action, the way i spend my time with Him is the way you see it
Whether you laugh or cry, it wont make a difference

Keep your focus and seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added onto you. Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself
Trust in the Lord and He shall lead you into His Presence
Dont ever COMPROMISE FOR ANYTHING

We know you say sure sure, you know this. But will you actually do it?
In school, in church, at home, in front of an idol?
Will you still do it even if it means making you uncomfortable?
Well it doesnt for me unless i think of it
So just trust in the Lord
Even if i feel the pressure, i still choose to serve my Father and no one on earth will ever stop that.

To all Christians, STOP looking at things from one point of view
If people can get stumbled about this, do you not think that there's people who will be curious about it?
Like what if they start asking, hey how come that guy does all this stuff, even if it may be embarrasing and it only happens at rock concerts. How come at such a kind of music, that guy behaves this way.

There you go, open door
Time to stand at the door and say, hey, come and follow me and i'll show you why

Hey if you faced demons and walk through the valley of death and more, i dont see why such a small thing could stop you.
Oh know its your first time.
I've been through that part too and its cool to be humble and admit
Its stupid to be prideful and keep it back
Hey i've been stupid sometimes, but will you surpass me at that point of time? or will you fall like what i did at that time?
The choice is yours

2008-01-27T08:55:00.000-08:00

Xup man, now's the time to be alive
And i got no regrets, and I am grateful that i wasnt in Jesus times or the apostles time
Cause if i was there, i wouldnt be able to do the Lord's work in this generation. hahaha

You know this clothes stuff about whether a not wearing miniskirts and shorts here and there for girls and stuff.
I tell you, i say dont do it
Cause you dont this to wear this kind of revealing clothes to make you more beautiful
If you tell me, sure you dont need anything to be beautiful
I tell you, thats sure true, but you do need clothes to cover yourself up from stumbling other people, cause out of over 10 000 boys around you, 9999 or all of them will think degrading thoughts about you. Seriously and they will degrade themselves as well. No joke.
You need clothes but not revealing ones.
Im sure that in your closet, you got like what, skirts, blouses, jeans, proper tops and stuff to make you look pretty, + the beauty that God gave you. So i say, more than enough
Dont believe me? Think and ask God whether this makes sense.

World's opinion on fashion, i throw it away. Seriously
God's opinion on fashion? I'll take it.
Hahahah

Well keep up the good jobs anyway, anything new to post, i'll post
But by the way, pray for my placement tests on 30 jan k?
And 1 more thing, if you got any questions, feel free to ask.
Later.......

Desperation Radicalism

2008-01-22T05:41:00.000-08:00

Xup man, today im gonna talk to you guys on desperation radicalism
Or DR for short.

Hey you guys know that desperation is part of radicalism dont you
I know i know, you guys say that you are radical and desperate
But my question to all of you again is
HOW MUCH ARE YOU?
Are you desperate enough to do whatever it takes to save your friends and the people around you?
Are you radical enough to stand even when everyone is against you?

I am
Cause i know that the One in me is more than enough to satisfy and way more than enough to save them. If i stand, i know He will be standing right beside me.

So i ask you now what is your choice.
Are you ready to go out and take the fight to the next level
All our actions, thoughts and decisions depend on our choice

First, we can choose to sin or not to sin
Thats our choice. We can choose to fill our heads with dirty/bad/evil thoughts or we can filled it with God-Centered Holy Good thoughts from what we see and hear.
I tell you, no one can control your body and your actions unless you allow them too.
Cause in Christ, We are free. And its our choice to take back the decision power from our sinful nature, the devil and the world.
No one makes the decisions except us.
Even the Lord did not force us so who can force us? NO ONE

2. Compassion is the fuel for desperation
You cannot be desperate if you do not have compassion on the lost
If you cant see them as who they are, ask the Lord to open your eyes.
Note that this is not a one time event in your life, sometimes you can close it subconsciously
But its your choice to open them again
Unless we have compassion on them, we cannot be love them and if we cannot love them, we cannot be desperate

3. Desperation requires the heart of God
Now im not talking about the church called " Heart of God"
But i am talking about the knowing and having the heart of God in you
We are the temples of the Holy Spirit man, and it definitely have the heart of God
Its our choice to take it up.
Unless you love them like the Lord loves them, you cannot save them
There is no point going on the battlefield without the proper equipment
Im sure you guys know that no soldier goes out on the battlefield with just his underwear
HE'LL GET KILLED OUT THERE

And lastly
If you are desperate for God and for the lost souls
Thats a trait of a radical Christians
So guys i encourage you in all you do
Especially those who had the honor of attending the ignite conference
to GO OUT AND SAVE THE LOST SOULS
GO GO GO GO
I trust you guys to do your part, if not im taking over your parts hahahaha
well if the Lord agrees to it
so GO GO GO PEOPLE!!!!!!
Later.......

2008-01-13T06:10:00.000-08:00

Xup man, punctuality and discipline is a MUST
We gotta push up a notch and kick the devil in the face
If he tries to attack us, remember
We will stand, stand together
Gotta say something and have something to say
We cant slack off just because of one day of victory,
If we got victory we gotta push
Just as when each time the Lord conquered the enemies of the Israelites, they pushed on and conquered the enemy's territory
Look, the Lord wants to give us more and more each day
He wants us to grow and improve every milli second or nano second and thats ultra fast
To be better than what we were before,
He wants us to do it when we have time which is NOW
so that later on we can improve even futher
Just as our Father has no limit, our potential with Christ is limitless
Lets take this oppertunity as we are allowed to pair with Him who is so well, GREAT
to do what we are called to do
Come on, lets take back all thats belongs to Him(Jesus) and take back all the lands and lost souls that rightfully belongs to Jesus.
Come on we are called to be ambassadors of God and therefore we shall go forth among every nook and crany of the world and shine the light of Christ to all of them
For with God, who can be against us
Come on, LETS GO! NO HESITATIONS!!!!!!!COME ON!!!!!

Later.....

2008-01-13T02:20:00.000-08:00

Xup man, you know the titles that people give like in church and other places like
Dr this, Brother that, sister this, pastor that,
I mean uncle and auntie sounds just fine. But using the occupation name like clergyguy this, dr this, pastor this , or sounds just, well dead man
You know in one of my previous church i was called brother Bryan and it sounded funny like i was some 20 over years old guy, and i dont think even when im 30 i would still like to be called brother
Its seems kinda stiff right? like no relationship

Well, thats some stuff to think about, you know i wonder about how many " Christian" schools actually is from the Lord. You know i heard ya you may be the school that this guy founded or some other famous Christian guy founded but SO WHAT!?!?!

You aint gaining my respect just because of someone famous guy whom i do not know.
There is a difference between knowing and hearing
Knowing is having a relationship
Hearing is hearing about the person.
This is why i go around and i dont claim to know people who call my name and yet i never met them. You see the funny relationship? 1 sided only
Well, i dont mind that when they know me as the vessel of the Lord, but i do mind it when the Lord is not involved. You get what im saying
I aint gonna like being known as THE radical Christian
I want to be known as A radical Christian who always has JESUS walking beside me.
You see the difference? Not THE but A

I think thats about it for today
Well guys and gals, keep up the good work and keep on serving the Lord.
Anything can find me or the leaders to talk with.
Dont cause unneccessary trouble k? (goes to all christian leaders too)
Later....

2008-01-01T07:12:00.000-08:00

Xup man, you know i just read a cool story man, and you gotta read it too.
Its at 2 Samuel 23:8-12

Bryan's summerized version
It talks about these 3 guys who stood aganist over 800 enemies even when their pals left them, they still stood and won the victory.
The leader Josheb Basshebeth, actually killed 800 men in battle.
You know, fighting battles last time, people had archers to attack.
So this guy even knowing that he would fight aganist people who could kill him from long range and also had the guts to take up his sword, well spear and kill them all in the end. How cool isthat

The second is a guy called Eleazar,
This guy is also super cool,
His pals deserted him, he stood and fought and won
No death, he survived and killed them all
How cool is that man

The third guy, similar story to the second.

Well you know what, im gonna beat them as well as you
Cause im gonan be the most radical Christan ever.
Watch out, i may not be fighting against men directly
But i will fight against the things and spirits in them that cause them to turn from the Lord and sin
Watch out, cause this generation and the next and so on is conquered in the Name of Jesus Christ.
Woohoooo......Charge!!!!!!!!!!

Later......

2007-12-31T07:52:00.000-08:00

Xup man, its the last post of the year
Well, its time to leave behind the memories and the old self and start anew
You know i never liked being the same always.
YOu gotta watch out, im going outrun and win the race regardlesss
Watch me as i become the most radical Christian ever
Well, gonna have more work to do, so yeah

By the way merry christmas and a happy new year to all of you
Do not give up but keep on fighting ya?
Good. Later....... man

Kyo

2007-12-20T22:53:00.000-08:00

Xup man you know the verse that says As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.
You know that this means that one person may also harm another
As iron you see part of it is broken off to make it sharper, the unwanted parts
Which if it was a human, it would mean a whole lot of pain
As a Christian, we are all gonna suffer thats 1 point
We have to suffer to grow stronger
We are gonna grow stronger as we worker together and suffer together
But through it all we are gonna grow greater in the Lord and become better tools for the Lord to use. Got it so far?

You know another thing is fear
Look im not saying that strong christians arent fearful
I am one of them yet people call me strong
Listen i know im weak, that is why i call upon the Lord
And what people see is not my own but the Lord's
If i did something right, i know that the Lord is the One who empowered me to do it
Not myself. If i tried hard, i would only achieved a certain level, but with the Lord's help. I can move mountains and command the seas.

Now listen, i dont expect you to be the perfect Christian, but i also dont expect you to be quiet when its time to fight. Who ever heard of an army who goes to battle in silence?
People shout warsongs and make loud noises. Not charge with no voices? That doesnt scare a enemy.
It gives them confidence. You know, last time i generated my own confidence but now, i dont need to generate my own. Cause the Lord's confidence empowers me, i am no longer the quiet boy who will wait upon the time. But I'll ask for the time, i will ask for the calling and i will prepare myself.

Another point is this. When you ask for something. Prepare for it.
Like when you ask for the salvation of someone. Prepare to evangelise to that person.
Prepare to witness.
Have you ever heard of warriors going into the battle with no armour?
They'll get killed.
If we call for a war, we must prepare.

You know, some of you tell me. Dont go provoking the devil. Dont go challenging them
I tell you this, just by wanting to bring salvation to your friends. You are challenging the devil and his dumb bunch.
I tell you this, We fight together against whatever that comes against the Lord regardless of who and what may come. Know that im not saying go and knock the living daylights out of someone. Im saying we got to go and conquer territories. We gotta reclaim back what is the Lord's and take back what is Ours.
If you're not gonna do it, then i will. Simple as that.
Remember guys, this life. We are in a war with the devil over the souls of this world
Unless you choose to participate, We will fight till the end. For the Lord calls on everyone, but its our choice to respond. Are you gonna be one of those who does? or will you seat back and get whacked by us.
James 4:10 (Bryan brief interpretation)
Whatever thats not for God is against God.
(Check it out yourself, the verse is similar to this)

Look people, we were put here for a reason and thats not to make merry. Cause thats what we're gonna do in heaven. But on this earth, we are gonna fight until the very end. Regardless of who or what, this is what is happening. Now's the time to take up your cross and fight. Follow the Lord with all your heart and do not give up. Each school, each piece of land you see and step on, thats what we are gonna reclaim. Each and every person you see. I tell you pray for them, be alert and get ready for who knows when the Lord will call you to evangelise.
Take heart and do not fear, for if you seek ye first the Kingdom of God, all these things shall be added onto you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow cause thats tomorrow's job. What you gotta do is just focus and dont give up.

The devil may come and attack as many times as he wants but I tell you this, We'll will keep on fighting and conquer more and more each day. Regardless of what happens. Dont hide but take heart and fight. Remember, dont let anything stop or even break your relationship with Christ cause thats more important than anything in this world. Trust Me. If you dont, ask Our Father. If you cant hear Him, choose to hear Him and Him alone. (That means Jesus!!!!!)

Later........

2007-12-06T06:12:00.000-08:00

Xup man
This week was awesome
I was kind of tired when i wrote the last post so i apologise about that.
So far this week is still AWESOME
and glory goes to God.
I think I've learned today was focus

You know focus and help you in alot of stuff
Last time i was really bad at focusing on anything. You tell me to focus on something, and my mind will wonder off.
But its what you focus upon is important
You know, in matthew 6:33-34
It says that if you seek ye first the kingdom of God, all these things will be added onto you.
That includes everything
Like in the night rally, i was put in charge of taking care of the girls in YI with the other boys but i really wanted to worship and just let the Lord take care of it. I was feeling really bad about not dancing and singing praises. Even when the australians and the thai people could do it. It felt really wrong. So i asked the Lord what to do and I just focused upon the Lord, i didnt care the least what happened, or what will happen but i just focused on the Lord and on the Lord alone.

And He provided everything.
Security, prayer, worship, salvation, miracles and even healing of broken hearts and arguments. It was awesome.
At that time i closed my eyes and ears, didnt care about the people, the leaders, YI or anything else. I put my all my focus on the Lord and He provided everything. I was fully alert on what was happening, i could see the attacks at time. We fought back and won. Hurrah for the Lord. WOooohoooOOOooOOO.
The Lord sent dogs to patrol the whole area, protecting everyone. He blew away the smoke and the polluted air away from the place. You could clearly see that the smog stayed at one end which was around the entrance to the open air concert. It was really cool.
I prayed for the people and for one of the old lady there whom i felt really sad for. I kept praying, i even begged the Lord for her salvation. And she did get saved in the end. Hurrah with the Hurray for the LORD JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOOOOHOOOHOOHOHOHOO.
People whom we all prayed for were even healed, well most of them. And so many of them were so hungry too. It was totally radically awesome and All Glory goes to JESUS THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY JESUS CHRIST AND TO HIM ALONE BE ALL THE GLORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

I tell you placed your trust and your focus upon the Lord and on the Lord alone and all these things you worry about will be taken care of. You do your part and the Lord will do the rest. Simple yet hard to do with awesome rewards. You say something. Mean it. Dont go back on your word and you have the choice. Rememeber that the choice is yours and no one else. Yes there is temptations, but its your choice to choose to fall or not.
Remember failure is a sin but sin is not a failure.
Do your best and give the rest to the Lord. Not 100% if you can go past 100% than go.
Your best is you give everything you got until you got nothing left not your limit. Got it?

Well the next is who you put your focus on and you should know who.
JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!!
Hey i tried buddhisim, islam, cults, taoism, confucianism and the rest of the stuff. It dont tally, you dont get anything out of it except death. Yuck
The only place i ever found satisfaction was the Lord Jesus. No joke. I tried money and stuff and it dont tally man. Even sexual and sensual pleasure it dont tally. Now i find it disgusting when it is at the wrong time with the wrong motive.

Well, if you keep your focus upon the Lord, nothing will be impossible for you. Trust me about it.
Now today i went to great world city, dont know whats so great about it. Its just a building and nothing else. Well We conquered it and dedicated it to the Lord, now we need send in the harvesters to harvest the souls. Man so much work.
Well, time to work then hahahhaha. You guys do your part and dont cause me so much trouble ya? k?
Alright keep on going.
Later.......

2007-12-05T06:51:00.000-08:00

Xup man, ok im back from the mission trip
Rank: S
Everything went according to plan,
well even as i fell sometimes.
Ok lets start with day 1 man

Day 1
Aircraft had motion sickness, didnt feel too good
Air pollution was extreamly strong there. Hard to breathe over there
Coach was fun with uno but hard to sleep and do quiet time, its was also very uncomfortable to sleep. When i reached the hotel, i think i slept, if im not wrong cause we reached it in early morning

Day 2
Work begins, we went to schools even though the first one wasn't quite as expected to be, the school was conquered in the end and if i remembered correctly, a few of the key leaders there were saved. Well, gotta praise the Lord for that. When we came back the second time after lunch, the response was much better but ian became a little popular, that i got a wee bit jealous at that moment, well i got my share but still.......you know.
Anyway after we did the third time, if im not wrong. We went to another school or the boys home, im not sure about it.
But one thing, the temples we passed, We conquered it in the Name of Jesus Christ.
Well, playing with the boys was more fun and all of them got saved, gotta praise the Lord for that.

Day 3
We went to more schools, i think it was a catholic one this time or another buddhist one, i cant remember, but we saved it.
Wait, now i remember, it was a buddhist one if im not wrong.
Ian got popular again but with the auzzies this time.
Catholic one was less response from what i saw. Though buddist ones were more receptive. Or wait, i think i didnt count so cant really tell. But in the catholic one, the boys were very friendly and invited me into their circle without a single thought, yeah i got to know some of them well but i forgotten their names. Whoops, sorry bout that.
In the night, we had a night rally in the udontani village, i think everyone got healed but one thing cool was that. The ex monk that was healed and saved was called to be one of my partners or teammates whatever you guys call it, in the near future. Well at least i know one of the people who will lead thailand to Jesus. Now how cool is that.
Oh ya, and as we prayed walk around the village pillar, it started to crack and that was this huge crack appearing in on the village pillar in the middle of the funny thai words.
Also we gave out tracks before that and we entered a temple to give tracks to the monk though only one monk out of the 2 monks we met accepted the track.
Just for you to know, there were only 4 monks in the temple praying.
Another thing was that the monks and the buddhist people were praying against us.
Irritating isnt it? But the presence of God was there and almost all got healed. I could feel it but i dont know how many others felt it too. Cause the kids felt it when We passed them.

Day 4
I remember going to some more schools but i cant really remember what happen then. But in the night rally. We went to another village to give out tracks and there was less healings but there was a guy who showed a lot of faith, now thats school
First there was a little kid who had some funny unknown disease and had a open wound in his head. Well you know i dont like open wounds nor funny stuff, so we prayed against it and he got healed. Then there was this guy with a heart disease who was also a christian but we prayed against it and he got healed. Now there was this guy, really good guy. He was blind due to HIV. We prayed for him and his HIV was gone but not his blindness from what i saw. When We prayed for him, i felt 2 strings in his heart suddenly snapped. I dont know what was that but if the Lord snapped it. Good for him. After that, he could open his eyes bigger and see a bit from what i believe not all but just a wee bit. We invited him to church and he did came.
Bad things was i had started to hold personal dislike against wanxin, john, jason, jiehau and ian. Well its my fault for sinning and not doing my best.
Other good points is that i met some people from lyn's team, dont know whether i spelt it right, but yeah, it was good working with them. Then we went to dedicate pi joy's house to the Lord, and that was cool i think. hahahahha. Once when we were praying, the mic had problems and it irritated me so much that i commanded it " SILENCE IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!" and instantly it was silenced. Now how cool is that

Ok back to day 5
We went tesco which was a shopping mall. There was a lack of translators so i had to learn how to share Christ in thai from sze en. Also i had a bad supressing spiritual atta,ck on me so i had to keep on praying. At that time, it was kinda hard tot hear from the Lord unfortunately. We gave out tracks and yeah i got give credit for xiang xiang for being hungry for God's work. Good job man, but you aint getting that outta my mouth. After that i went evangelising with jiehau's group then we met a fortune teller, a former sister. It was kinda sad that she did not want to go back to the Lord. Later, i went with wanxin's group and we evangelised to a handphone shop lady but her heart was cold, so sad and that was too bad man. Ok then i woke up. We went for lunch after that at kfc, though i still dislike kfc so dont ever think about it. Oh ya breakfast we went to a new place with an awesome recipe for bread and butter with sugar. But i only had one piece of bread and 1 small piece of pork. Now afterwards i went down with sze en and joshua, then we saw some monks. I was all ready to attack, so we charged but by the time i reached there, they disappeared and ended up in ian's and jono's hands. Aw man i wanted to attack the monks.

Later we shared to a teenage couple, where the girl received Christ and went to church after that, it was kinda cool i guess, the first time in the whole day which i saw a person coming to Christ. Then we passed by a tire shop, where i shared Christ for the first time without a translator which was uber cool and nice. Well the guy received Christ and said that he would come to church but i didnt see him so i leave it to pastor thung( may be wrong spelling)
Yeah after that joshua shared and it was the first time i heard his testimony and it was really cool i guess. Cant say it wasnt. After that when we were leaving, Pastor Thung's daughter was missing and i actually begged the Lord to reveled to us where she was. So the first place was the cinema, but she wasnt there. The second place was the supermarket where we found her with one of the sisters, cant remember who but found her.
Oh ya the movie godman was played for the 9th time i think.

In the night,we went to do street e, though it was great. It was very tiring but we kept on fighting and conquered many areas for Him.

Day 6
Church day, went in had fun. Though all the songs were in thai but when i focused upon the Lord, I could actually understand what they were saying and respond in english. Now how cool is that man. After that i saw the girl in the shopping center and the blind guy in church. Now that was mainly AWESOME!!! And all glory goes to Him and Him alone. After that we went to the idol garden to break the strongholds and cast out all evil spirits. It was cool, though it was the longest i think it was a 3 hours battle i had. Wow, it was just hard, every statue i passed, i prayed and broke it. I dont know how many were with me but i could feel the Lord's peace with me at that time. It was totally radical man. Yeah we conquered the whole place and the shopping center. Yeah it was great. After that we had dinner and went off.

Day 7
We visited a prison and that was totally radical as many of them got saved. And you know, i can repeat the sermon a thousand times but if that the Lord's will, still many will get saved and none will get bored. Yeah pastor daniel preached that night.
After that we went to another school which we did skit in the class, there was this guy called tom who was also a translator who shared his testimony with the whole group and they all got saved. But the highlight was the later part where i saw a guy on a motorbike ready to leave school. So i called pastor thung to come and help translate. But this time i was led with the spirit and shared more than i was taught to share and the guy on the bike listened carefully and i could see the tears that were coming out of his eyes when i shared. It was an awesome experience. That time i think the Lord used me to train that guy to be a radical Christian. I think he broke my record. I took 15 years to be radical, while that guy took 3 minutes to be radical. Hahahahaha.
Oh ya and the bus driver that drove us around? Ian and i shared Christ with him and he received Christ. That was super cool. And erm, lets see. Afterwards we went to prayer walk the city pillar and yeah we conquered it. Just to let you guys know, we conquered the whole nongkai, not saved it but conquered it. Well the parts where we went to and yeah the whole nongkai. Whether you see or not. Didnt save it cause of my fault for being human so oh well. Saved more people and yeah. We also conquered the government building and saved many people on the way there.

During the night concert, it was weird but i prayed really hard and focused on God. We broke the stupid idol altar and started the concert. It was really funny but disturbing as well . Yeah. Ok so the girls got scared due to the people coming in. Slap them cause fear that is not of God is against God, and that they did not rely wholly upon the Lord. So after We prayed, the Lord sent dogs to come and guard the whole place, not the small ones but the really big ones, it was super cool.
Then many people were leaving so i prayed really hard against the air pollution and against the evil spirits. The air pollution was held at bay, We cut down an evil spirit on a woman persuading people to live. And i was also praying really hard for a receptive ah por to be saved and in the end she was. Though we had little time, the people were really still very hungry, it was awesome.

We left for bangkok, slept in maxx hotel. Shopped the next day though i couldnt find anything of use. I felt like i had everything so nothing really bothered me so yeah thats what i've learned. ope you will have a great time serving. Give out the rest of the details tomorrow. As for now,
Later.......

2007-11-26T05:47:00.000-08:00

Announcement
I will be going off tomorrow for mission trips, will be back in 9 days time from tomorrow.
Anyone can come and see us off
Now when im gone, i expect to come back to see a whole lot of improvement and growth ok?
No slacking, i expect you to be more radical than me or try to, or at least as ok?
I gonna expect great things from each and everyone of you, that includes Christians and non Christians, be it in my church or not my church. All of you. Got it?

Now you know, i've been thinking.
Do people do their best and fail? not fall, FAIL.
You know and it came to me like this
If you followed the Lord and do what He wants you to do, you will not fail.
If you follow your ways and refuse to follow the Lord regardless, you will fail.
Now im not saying that you follow the Lord only at the last part you fail,
Nor am i saying that if you follow the Lord just for a part be it front or last, you will fail.

I'm saying that if you choose to follow the Lord regardless of the situation be it when you know Him or when you just known Him, you will NOT fail.
If you do your best in everything you do, you will not fail

Now what is your best?
Is it your all your effort? No
Is it just all words? No
Is it just believing? No
* Your best is when you give it your all, that means when you can go pass 100% and break the limit, you do it. And give the rest to the Lord.
If you do your best and leave the rest to the Lord, you will definitely have victory always.
Now im telling you as a reminder, Failure does not equal to falling
Yes we sin, that is when we fall
No we dont fail when we sin.
We are all sinners and will always sin until we become like Jesus, that is why we NEED to ask for forgiveness.
We fail only when we choose not to repent, or when we give up. Not when we sin

You want to know how to not fall? Read 2 Peter 1:5-10
You still will ask for forgiveness but you will grow closer and become more like Christ.
No kidding, seriously.

And thats ends for part 1
Part 2 is next time

Later.......

2007-11-15T08:01:00.000-08:00

Xup man
Its the end of the exams, yet i dont feel relaxed or relief but the start of something big
Man you guys are troublesome leaving me so much work
Buck up
Hey you know recently i think i may be in the cranks, but i gotta pull up my socks and get it done right.
Its time to pull the strings, while We conquer thailand, i want you guys to conquer singapore while im gone on missions ok?
Dont give me trouble now, you hear?

Lets see i might be visiting fairfield for a nice visit, if i got the time
Then i might go and check up on some few people
Then onto to experiencing more of the Lord
Well something you gotta know
This vacation will be the last for my life
Its must be about Him and only Him only. Got it?
If you come and find me as your number source of help, im gonna slap you in the backs and wake you up cause its the Lord you find first.
If He ask you to find me, then by all means, the door is open.
Now where were We, oh ya

I got my new spiritual journal today and other stuff
maybe i should have just spent the day with the Lord, it might have been better
Now Bryan out, Later..........
Spend your time wisely, you only got one life.
Dont waste it on the world

2007-11-04T06:56:00.001-08:00

Xup man, i know i have not really be blogging much
And like sometimes when i got something cool to right, i forget it after awhile
So im here cause i got some cool stuff to share with you guys + gals
You know i've been reminded about the time last year when one of the leaders told me we had a heavy spiritual attack, there was this suppressing feeling but i chose to ignore and didnt feel it.
You know why?
Its because i couldnt care less
Its says in Matthew to seek ye first and all these things shall be added onto you
Does that include food? Yes
Does that include daily needs? Yes
Does it include protection from spiritual attacks? Yes it most is
Then it lead me to this
I've been so focused on getting rid of the spiritual attack that i forgotten to focus on the Lord
Now how bad is that man
Than now i relocated my focus back on to Him
And what can the world or the devil do
Yeah thats right, they cant touch me but We can slap them back and take the victory,
Now how cool is that
Im not letting them touch my faith or anything for that matter
But We're gonna claim back all the ground they conquered.
There's gonna be a great awakening in the land
Are you ready? If your not ITS STILL GONNA HAPPEN hahahahaha
I tell you everywhere be Rome, Asia, Aus, America, North Pole, Timbaktu
Every little crevice to every single city. There will be a great awakening
Its either you're for Us or against Us. You make your choice cause mine is in the Lord
Beat that man.

Now as the middle exam, its the maths and physics + the chems coming up. You know what
We are gonna conquere it. You know even if the world prayed against Us, they will never win. Because of Jesus Christ living in Me and nothing in Me.

2007-10-25T09:11:00.000-07:00

Xup man
these few weeks im having my IGCSE
Though im kinda prepared i cant say i have a confirmed A*
So im gonna keep on studying
but i tell you this, as my studies get better so will i be even more in depth in Our relationship( me + JESUS)
This I promise you
1. God
2. Wife + studies
3. Others
4. the list goes on

Hahahahahaha
Hey keep up the fight and do not fall
Even if the world seems to be happy
Ask them if you want to confirm
Are they satisfied 110% with where they are and what they are doing
or are they seeking for their gap to be filled up.
This includes the smallest baby to the head honcho of the UN or whatever criminals or terrorists
Ask them that, and see whether they reply the same honestly
I tell you they will
You want to know why?
How to be fully satisfied
Seek the Lord Jesus Christ the Son of God and the kingdom of the Lord.
Know this faith without actions without dead.
Those who claim to be of the Lord but life aint right is not of the Lord.
Got it?
So, which one are you.

Are you ready to take up the challenge and save the world or are you going to be against Us.
Its your choice
Remember there is no in between
James 4:9
Either for God or against God ( summarised version)

2007-10-24T06:50:00.000-07:00

Xup man
you know what i tell you this to all of you
I dont care what you do or who you are
As long as you are of my Father the Lord God Almighty Jesus Christ, im ok
If you are against Him, you are aganist me. Got it?
To me it does not matter who comes against us, as long as you are against my Father, you are against me, and if my Father allows me, you're dead meat.

And one thing for sure
Homosexuality is against my Father.
And im against homosexuality
Im not against the homosexuals cause they are people that dont know what they are doing
But i am against what they do i am against that all the way
Yes i dont care who supports it, if you support you are against Us.
Got it?
President, prime minster, UN, king of the world or wealthiest man, or lowest poorest person. It doesnt change a thing, even if you are part of my family.
Those includes the so callled "Christians" and brothers and sisters who act like they are but are not.

2007-10-06T23:35:00.000-07:00

Xup man
I'm gonna ask you all, Christians and non Christians alike
Are you satisfied with where you are?
Are you contented with your life or do you want more
Is the gap in your heart eternally filled up or is there always something missing and complete satisfaction is always unattainable?
Well im gonna tell you. I for one and am completely satisfied
Not because I face different things or have different things from you, its because i got someone (not a human or animal or any of your silly imaginations) who can fill me always.
Just because i got an in satisfiable hunger for more things doesn't mean i am not satisfied.
Because everytime i am want more i receive it, and when i dont, i ask for it more

Now lets start with the Christians
If you are satisfied good for you
If you are not, then is something missing in your life?
Do you limit yourself to your own human limitations or do you let the Lord take control
Are able to stand and honestly tell me that you are satisfied?
Well thats for your to ask yourself
Or is the world keeping your afraid of asking for more. Remember we are aliens in this world but we are here because we are called. And aliens doesnt mean super terrestrial or whatever name for space alien. No neither are we mutants. Dont be fooled by teenage mutant ninja turtles. Cause it aint true

Then for those who claim to be Christians
You know, saying the sinners prayer doesnt make you a christian
Neither does going to church
Even if you lived in church your whole life doesnt make you a christian
Your relationship with the Lord does
And i tell you even to the governments and celebrities and anyone else who fakes this kind of stuff. Well We dont care who you are or whats your position but if you claim to be a Christian yet your life is not right with the Lord. You are nothing but a liar and a hypocrite. You do not have the victory and freedom in Christ if you are still bound to the chains of sin.
Comprende?
Yeah i also heard this story, you dont need to be perfect to be a christian. Of course Christians are perfect, we fail sometimes. But the difference is that we change our ways and repent when we fall to ensure that we dont do it again. Though we may fall, we still get up and fight again cause He forgives us. Yes He can forgive you but you also got to do your part. Even if you fall a cazillion times, He will still forgive you. But you got to change

And now for the worldly Christians
Now listen
James 4:9
You are either for God or aganist Him
There is no middle
You are either for Him or not
If you worship the world you are not for Him and therefore aganist Him
Its this strict. This is the standard that Our Father has set.
Not of the world neither equal or lower than the world but its set aganist the best of the best the highest and hardest standard.
This is one of the first steps for getting serious
and i tell you not to scare but to wake you up
If you arent serious, when the beast comes, you are dead. Comprehende?

Lastly non Christians
Back to the topic
Lemme ask you and tell me honestly
Are you ever satisfied completely with anything?
Is the gap in your heart ever filled to full?
Are you eternally satisfied?
If you want to be, you can ask me or any Christians
we can lead to the solution but one thing we cannot do is choose it for you
Its your choice, you can want it or not but i nor anyone else can force you to do it.
If you dont choose it by yourself not under any other influence, its not counted
You have to make the choice yourself.
And if you are serious about being completely and eternally satisfied. We will lead you to the One who can give it to you and that is Jesus Christ the Son of God.

2007-09-25T07:06:00.000-07:00

Xup man, its been long hasnt it?
Well, looks like i cant play a fool anymore
Well exams werent that great but still
ALL GLORY GOES TO GOD!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey i'm glad i still am able to say this after all these years, that i am still faithful to my promise to my wife and to the Lord my Father. I dont really mind hitting the books but its gets kind of boring
If any of you got spare time, give me a call and we'll chat, just not during school hours.
Hey all you knights and other christians, GO FOR PRAYER MEETING MAN
Its gonna sweep the pants off your feet, you will never find a more fun place other than church, well my church( dont know about the rest)
But its your choice to choose the whether you want to make it fun or not
Hey pray for my IGCSE(similar to O levels)
I got a econs, double maths and triple pure science + the languages, please pray for them man
thanks.

Other than that, girls you gotta know this, i stay faithful to the one the Lord has planned for me, so i suggest you girls go serve and the Lord and give your days of your youth to Him. There's nothing better than doing that, trust me.
And if anything, i can be your brother when you call, not the fighting one but the one who follows the Lord one. Got it?

Later.......

2007-09-17T22:21:00.000-07:00

Xup man, long time no see
Its been long since i am like this, this ROCKS
Goals of this term
1.CONQUER THAILAND!!!!!!!!
2.CONQUER PRELIMS!!!!!!!!!
3.CONQUER IGCSE!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. FIRE UP The church and lead everyone to a higher and stronger relatioship with God
5. Be a better man
6. CONQUER SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!

Wishes for birthday presents
1.PRAISE PARTY ON BIRTHDAY not party
2. MORE PEOPLE GETTING SAVED
3. Pastor and leaders and memebers of the church come to know God more
4. Everyone does what they say and dont go back on their word.
5. People start opening up and stop hiding.
6. SINGAPORE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats for now
Later..........

2007-09-03T06:50:00.000-07:00

Xup man
Hey you know something, every time i am hit and everytime i get hurt
The more i will fight back, i wont go and just complain and whine about it
But i do go forth and make a change
Even if the world may hurt Us, its gives me all the more reason to fight back and lead them back to my Father.
You know, you gotta take it as a challenge rather than a burden, dont think so?
Let me ask you, throughout history have you ever heard of a person saving the world?
Sure people go do charity work and do good deeds, but what can such a small amount of good do in this sinful world?
I tell you, you gotta fight back not with your methods but with the Lord's. It wont make a difference even if you gather along all the people in this world cause it aint enough. No matter what you do, you cant change it. Only He can

To all you people, i say this to you all be quiet and listen. You claim to serve the Lord, yet you hurt Him with your actions. You claim to know Him yet you dont speak to Him. How then are you faithful to your words? How are you able to be trusted.
I call upon all of you now, listen and believe with all the nonsensical practice going on in this world.
1. There is One God
2. He is mighty to save
3. He loves you
4. You and Him are seperated by the gap of sin
5. Jesus made a way
6. Jesus died for you and me to have a relationship with Him
7. Only through Him can we live again.
8. He can solve your problems, but it depends whether you want to choose it or not.

Some funny questions people ask
1. If Jesus loves us, why cant all of us go to heaven
Ans, you dont claim it, you dont get it. How can you go into a person's place if you dont know the person. Remember all have fallen short of the glory of God. If He let sinners in, He lets devil in. And He doesnt do that.

2. Why is there suffering in this world
Ans. If there wasnt, no one would know who to rely on and would not have any ways to know Him due to too many distracting things. And its because He loves us, if He did not, we would be able to do all sorts of stupid things. It is to discipline us when we do something wrong or stuff that can hurt us. If you think this is not true, ask you parents why do they punish you when you do something wrong.

3. If i did not do something wrong today, i did not sin
Nope. You do sin. You cant say that you have nothing wrong in your mind. Thoughts are equal to action. If you think bad of a person, you are no different than saying or doing something bad to the person.

Next will be the fun ways to deal with worldly weapons.
Later.......

2007-08-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

Xup man, i find it super stupid and funny that when you guys get attack you bomb yourself.
Are you stupid???
Hey i tell you this, everytime when people curse or persecute you in any form in any magnitude, you bomb them back with bad thoughts and sometimes bad language, or you even complain to the Lord.
I tell you its like finishing yourself immediately rather than keep the fight on. I tell you now, shut up and stop doing these stupid things.
When people go aganist you, bless them
When people hate you, love them
Hey you were given freedom over your chains, who are you to condemn another or even speak aganist another.
Your thoughts means you action
Dont tell you me you didnt speak aganist your brother but only thought aganist him. I tell you, you've sinned already just like that, Snap.
I tell you this, next time people sin aganist you, tell them this. Bless you.
Let not unwholesome talk come out of your mouth but let that which is pure and good come.
For that only comes from the Lord,

I know you cant do it, but you can do it with Him empowering you.
If you are willing to let Him, you are able to overcome this.
That in every thought and word, you speak by Him and of Him.
Show the world that you are dead and that only Christ lives in you.
Hey, no one told you to drag along your carcass. Its time to throw away the old men and start the new life in Christ.

I tell you each time you bless another, you are reminding the devil of what he used to do and of how Christ defeated him. Remember, the world expects you to return evil with evil, well i tell you return it with goodness. Cause you aint part of the world, you are part of Christ. You are in Our family now. So dont fear but go forth and win the world for Christ. Be the light and the salt of the earth.

Hey for all those of you who ask me this, what about those who loves us and care for us.
Are we suppose to return them with evil?
I tell you NO! N.O NO!
You are to even bless them even more, and when you bless, give them your blessings too not just the Lord's but yours too. So everyone can see that its not you but the Lord who is living in you.
Got it?

Dont give up, anytime you are tired call on His name
If you feel sian and so on, call upon His name or the leaders.
Cause we are here to serve and encourage one another as all the more as we see the day approaching.(Check out Hebrews 10:25)

Later.......

To my fellow brothers and sisters of all ages and times

2007-08-24T08:12:00.000-07:00

Xup man
Its been long but here we are again
I can tell you this few days has been tough on me and my heart was broken once
But i tell you this, the first thing i did in my pain was to seek the Lord and praise Him, then blessed those who hurt me.

I got a message for all of you, including the leaders
This is what i have to say,
As a servant of Christ and as a human, everyone is born to lead. It depends on where you lead and how you lead. Many people make the mistake that its not their problem to lead
Some even are complain that they have no influence. I tell you this all of you
Even if you do not know, you are a window to Jesus, the door to salvation.
Its the closest thing your friends will ever get to experiencing Jesus.
Whether you know it or not, everyone has influence on people.
Every single one of you, whether you were just born or you are near the end of your life
You influence others.
You can either be their leader to lead them to Christ and save them....or
You can lead them to death by following their sins and seeking the devil
You are either with the Lord or against Him. There is no neutral and there is no percentage junk.

I tell you all openly, I myself and famous for one good thing and one bad thing. I am very selfish and I am very sensitive.
By natural i dislike all that is imperfect, and by nature i am able to feel and sense everything. Not just physically and emotionally but mentally. Your pain is my pain. Its that much.
But i tell you, unless the Lord saved me I was nothing more than a piece of rubbish.
My skills and potential could have never been realised unless i got serious. Even though i was a Christian when i was young, i never realised my potential until I seeked the Lord with all my heart.
Hey its your choice, i cant force you. I can give you the solution and lead you to Him. But i cant make the decision for you to accept my words and follow Him.

As for leaders, there is mainly two ways of leading.
One you lead with your will
Another you lead with His will.
Sometimes i follow my will, i cannot deny that
But most of the time i choose to seek Him and follow His will.
Many of you always complained aganist me that when something bad happens, i do not worry but remain calm. But you people are weird, when something bad happens, i pray and then i believe that its in my Lord's hands. And if He is in control, why should I worry. It doesnt mean i dont take action, it just means it doesnt matter anymore whether what may happen. Cause He is in control. Not me but Him

I tell you its easy to say, but hard to follow. You may ask Him to give you more jobs to do.
I tell you, if you can master this command and do it automatically, you would not be asking me what else to do. Like I told many before me and yet to come, its not me who is in control, I speak not from my own words but His words for He has the best way for anything. I can be the one you can physically rely on when im there, but I should not be your first choice neither should anyone else. Your first choice should be the Lord.

Are you ready to be radical and follow Us. Follow me and Follow Him above all. For He is good, though im weak, He guides me. If you need a role model, never forget to call out to Him. Not me, Him The Lord God Almighty Jesus Christ. Got it? Dont got it, ask the Lord and read through again.

Later......

The Fight part 1

2007-08-15T08:26:00.001-07:00

Xup man, the battle of the body goes on
Flu fights with runny nose and dry cough
Bryan fights with the Lord by his side

Conclusion so far, Bryan is winning the fight
Wooohooo

Now as you all can see im sick
Please pray about that
And now for the important matters, it really makes me nauseous looking at the minds of people sometimes and seeing all the unwholesome and disgusting thoughts there. It really pains us to see this, dont you know your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit?
Why then do you cover it in filth and junk
Junk in, Junk out
Simple isnt it but yet why do you not understand or why do you understand and still do it?

Are you ready to take the fight to the next level, I am. Will you all follow or be left behind.
You gotta keep up the faith and fight, i cant fight for you but i can encourage you when you are down.
My chinese was not that good and i was kind of sad for a moment but I can tell you all this, its not worth getting tears over it, and its not good wasting good time when i can use that time to serve the Lord.
We worship Him not just by words but with our actions. Faith without deeds is dead.
Are you dead? If you are, We're gonna come and revive you. Cause i dont remember anything about dying to your good self. I remember it says to crucify your sinful nature not your new body.
Where are you now, are you in love with Him? To each and everyone of you. You have a lot of potential, i tell you even everyone was serious, the whole world would be saved withing 2 hours. Calculate yourself, if every Christian gets serious and start doing the Lord's will, or just by evangelising 1 friend by 1 friend. You'll get more than enough for the world.
Its not hard, by why are you not doing it
Here are the reasons
Discouraged
Gave up
Scared of others
Spiritually Dead
Pride

I tell you this, if you are discouraged, you can tell me your problems or best yet tell Him. When you are discouraged, We will encourage you. I promise you that

If you gave up, you are a fool. Why would you give up your soul to one who wants to destroy you rather that giving it to the One who could save you and fill up the satisfaction in your heart. Dont you want to be satisfied and have that hole in your soul to be filled up. I know you tried and failed once, but dont give up. Keep on trying and you pass one day. If you didnt hear from the Lord and gave up I tell you this, I waited 15years for the Lord to speak and finally He did. Dont give up so fast, keep the fight on and win the race for Him.

Scared now are you? Why do you care about others when you are protected by the One who is mighty to save. Its like you a worker in a company is threatened by a small boss. But the President(who is JESUS CHRIST) is ready to protect you and is on your side. Why are you scared when you have the One who has more power on your side?
Its like you are afraid a missile from another country when you have a missile shield and thousands of warheads ready to launch in retaliation.
You are a fool to be scared. Your parents may come aganist you, your friends may come aganist you, even the world will come aganist you. But do not fear, for the Lord your God is with you and He is mighty to save
Its says in Zephaniah 3:17
The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing
Zephaniah 3:17
So why fear, dont be stupid and let the situation control you, but let God control you and turn the situation around. K? He are always with you and I'll be there when He calls me to.

Spiritually dead? Want me to poke you?
Come on, wake up for nows the time of revelations. If you dont stand, when will you. You are an ambassador of Christ, you are the one who was called to lead the world to salvation and you dont care about them. Let me come and slap you hard to wake you up to reality. I dont know why some of you rather be in your own fantasy world, dreaming of being warriors and heroes.
This generation calls for heroes and warriors. Be that warrior for the Lord, you dont need magic powers to be powerful, you need the Lord to be strong. If you want that passion you had when you first met the Lord, ask Him for it.
Its says in Matthew 7:7
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Matthew 7:7
Hey its only a prayer away, dont give up. Ask for His presence, ask that how you may be of service to Him. Ask what is His will. He will gladly use you if you allow Him. Dont give up because of the training. I went through the training part too.

Ah pride, the most stupidest thing i heard
Are you dumb when you say you leave evangelising to others
Are you so stupid that you judge others and force others?
No one has the power to judge except the Lord, are you perfect?
Unless you are, you have no right to judge.
In Matthew 28:19
Go, then, to all peoples everywhere and make them my disciples: baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit,
Matthew 28:19
Its not only my job but yours
If you are not faithful in little things, how then will you be faithful in big things
Start it
And keep the fight going. Never stop for the reward is at the end of the race.
Keep on going for He is with you all the way.

Later............

2007-08-13T04:41:00.000-07:00

Xup man, its hard you know being the best that i can be now
This week was very discouraging, my chinese, my parents, my bio, my friends, my restrictions
It hurts a lot
Just loving people and not devouring them or destroying them
Its very hard
I tell you with all the power and responsibilty, the more you got to stand strong
The better you become and harder it is to live righteously
But i tell you this, i will not fail my Lord again, knowing the consequences it brings
I Wont!
I live to serve and until the world is saved, my soul will never rest
The Lord's will be done above all the earth, what He wants, i do
And only if He calls me to rest will i rest
Get up and fight, if you are down, i will be there to lead you to Him who will carry you and strengthen you to soar like eagles.
Come now and let are Fight the Fight.

Later........

2007-08-06T08:29:00.000-07:00

You know even as i look around i find no encouragement
When i place my faith in people they fail me regardless
No matter how many times i tried, i still failed.
Well thats gonna change, last time i did not rely completely on My Father
but now I will

I remember i never cared about anyone, and in that sense i was never hurt
I never had to wait for people, neither did i have to ensure that they were all right
But now thats different, taking up responsibility again but for the different purpose,
Its because of My Lord, that i am able to live,
Humans are foolish and they are wrong
They were never righteous and never had any rights to live or die, for that was always in the hands of My Father.
Making plans yet were either never complete or always failed
But His plans are those that work
So i always choose His over mine, most of the time.
Dont believe, check out proverbs 19:21

"Many are the plans in men's heart, but its the Lord's will that prevails"
Proverbs 19:21
My past is a secret and my future is secure
My home is far and my journey is long,
But still will i fight, as the war wages on
I keep up my faith and I will keep up the fight.

So as He sustains me, I will not fail
With all He has done, will I not do the same?
What i can do is be the example for people to follow
To show the life that was meant to be lived
To guide cold hearts into the midst of His great warmth.

Fellow Christians and fellow brother sisters
I urge you all to run this race with Us
That you all will take up your cross and follow Him
For He who leads us know the route and the way
For Him who is holy shall guide us and teach us how to live
For Him be the glory forever and ever.

With my broken heart, i will fight on even more
Remember i told you before

The more you hurt me the more I'll cling onto the Lord
The less you hurt me, even more will I cling to Him who called me to be.

Keep your faith, and if anything, ring me up and We will help you
Signed and left
Later......

2007-08-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

Xup man
I tell you this before i start
Even though i may be sad and feel a lot of pain
It doesnt mean i like it. Neither does it mean its normal
I really dislike it, but even though tears fall and my heart aches.
I will still continue to do the Lord's will regardless
After all, who am I to feel sad if the Lord never said be sad. hahahaha

I bet you guys didnt know these,
I dont always feel strong and energetic nor do i feel passionate all the time
But why do i continue to be more excellent in my actions
I tell you though i have many weakness, The Lord guides my steps that i do not fall
He gives me strength to move on when i am seek and i am in pain.
He is my motivation when all things in lost.
So even if dont feel crazy sometimes or even feel down, I'll work even harder, I fight even more until i am more than what i am before that i can say that I have done all these things through Christ who has strengthened me.
Cause its the Lord who does it not me. I'm just the middle man, the tool if you call it for Him to use, and that i gladly let.

You know its not the world that hurts me but my family, its because i care about everyone like my Father does. You should know that in a family its the ones closest to you who are able to hurt you the most not the one who are further away from you.
But I'll be a hypocrite if I dont love you and do not care about you guys,
+ I would fail if i didnt love everyone
Thats a price that i am not willingly to pay so I'll keep loving everyone as my Father loves them and me. Hahahaha

News
Premier of "Mighty to save" by us is coming out soon
National Day is coming soon
Notes almost done

Now for the daily word of Kyo
Sometimes i feel like a father, i dont know and i also dont like it
But since the Lord is our Father, i guess it kinda rubs off, maybe a bit.
To me its still a creepy feeling, i think even when i get married its gonna be a far far off until i decide to get one, unless my Father tells to, then no choice already. Hahahahha

Later.......

2007-08-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

Xup man
Hey hows the works these few days
For me its kinda discouraging
Hey the love is still here but the pain's irritating,
Sometimes i make stupid wishes but then i always ask for forgiveness
Since i dont like the boring cycle, i'll just stop the bad part of myself from doing it

Bad things that happen to me this week
Bad food poisoning( Bad kickapoo)
Discouraging people ( Bless you)

Good things this week
Hear from God and greater experience WOOOHOOO
Got into more fights and wars YESSSS!!!!!

Mainly i dont like humans, if i got a choice between the Lord and humans
I'll take the Lord's side
And i dont really take delight in being with them but the Lord's will be done.
hmm.........

Heres few good things to do during the holidays
1.Go for prayer meeting, including all ages.(school and work is banned + parental objection, fight until its broken)
2. Go for National Day Fast and Prayer
3. Go for bible study
4. Stay for dinner in church.
5. Fellowship more with family

Do these 5 and im sure you're booked.
Later.......

2007-07-29T05:39:00.001-07:00

Xup man
I'm sure you kind of curious about this so i will tell you
I know the reason why the world and humans fight against me and hurt me as much as possible.
Its because i dont act like you all, and i choose not be like you all
Mainly not because i am better, but because i have a better role model. That is Jesus Christ the Son of the Almighty Lord God.
I tell you this, the more i am hurt, the more i will cling on and do His will. My pain will be the extra motivation to pull me through, regardless.
And when i am not hurt, i will be even more desperate to cling on to Him for He has protected me from the dangers and rescued me from the hands of my enemies.

I can clearly say, i am an empty shell alone, but His Spirit fills me up and empowers me to do great things.
All my achievements and goals are not mine but all His.
To Him be the glory cause the process and the results are all His alone

You know, you dont need to have an IQ of 1 to know that when you get 2 options, you will choose the one which is the best. So between your plan and the Lord's. Tell me who is better.
Yours? or the Lord's.
Cause i pick the best and thats the Lord.

And to those who say you know me,
Can you say that when you know 0.1% you know everything?
If you just know my name, do you know me?
I tell you the truth, no one knows me except the Lord, if you want to know me, know the Lord.
I belong to Him and remain in Him and Him in me
John 15:5

And to the rest of you all, i will be there always for you all, only when the Lord calls me to.
Do not be deceived by the world, for we all know its decaying.
Do not follow the wiles of the foolish and be led down the path of death,

Have you not heard?

Seek ye first the kingdom of God all everything shall be added onto you. Worry not about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself
Matthew 6:34-35

Take up your cross cause the fight has begun
Are you ready to fight and win
or are you gonna run away with shame.
The choice is yours my friend

Later.......

2007-07-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

Xup man, people are you ready to be radical for the Lord
Are you ready to get serious, cause from now on its the gonna the fighters fighting
The fight just begun and my blood's running madly
Its time to prove your worth, in this battle.
I do not care what may come my way or who may be aganist me
Cause as long as i am doing His will, i need not fear anyone.
My parents, my friends, my seniors
It doesn't matter, i will fight for the Lord.
Once he gives the word, I will fight until the end until He says stop

My question is are you ready?
If you're not, follow me.
Not because im strong or am good.
I am very weak, but follow me because in my weakness, He makes me strong
I tell you this, run forth now with all your heart and might and seek Him first.
It doesn't take a strong men to lead, but it takes only a partnership with the KING OF KINGS.

If you are, come join us, cause thats where the fun starts
I tell you whatever club you go to
the hottest parties in the world,
Its shambles compared to what the Lord has in stored for you

I tell you this, strong man come and go, but those of the Lord stand firm.
We will never run, unless we are told to pull back for awhile. But we will fight and win the war.
And live this life to the fullest.
I know most pastors speak the Word from the Lord,
And i know during quiet time, you receives more knowledge and application from the Lord.
My question is, how desperate are you for the Lord's Word,
How desperate are you for Him to help.

I tell you this if you arent desperate enough, He will teach you to be.
Keep the faith and run this race
Nubian gents tomorrow
LETS BE RAD

Later,,,,,..............

A mixmat, can you handle that?

2007-07-11T04:09:00.000-07:00

Xup man
I'm on my break after studying for my bio
So i thought i gave a little food for thought to you guys

Words of wisdom
1. Never face your challenges alone, it'll eat you up. Like a man doesnt go facing tigers without a gun. So should you never go unprepared. Wherever you go and whatever you do, call on His Name. You yourself may know this, but whether you know how to apply it. Thats the catch

2. What you learn, you must apply.
When troubles come and you got no faith. For sure you will fall. Every Word the Lord speaks is precious, for thats your sword. In Ephesians 6, take on the sword of the Spirit, the sword of the Word of God.

3. When the going gets tough, you faith gets tougher.
Dont ever forget, that it takes a lot of effort and perserverance to get great rewards. I tell you this from my own experiences, when i finish any tests that the Lord has given me. Everyone will see that it is something extraordinary, and the rewards are great. Its bettter than anything humans can give.

You people should be thankful.
From the time i was born, life was peaceful and boring.
I really dislike it,
1. All my "friends" were playing church
2. The leaders never were radical
3. Persecuted for my passion. ( you see the china people getting persecuted, turn it into the primary school scenerio and you got the pic)
4. I scored excellent without knowing who helped me.
5. I never had any adventure that the tv shows had
6. I never found any satisfaction with the girls i had

Now
1. I got a wife promised to me( yay, glad i kept my promise)
2. I got a job to do
3. I know who is behind me all the way
4. My life is ultra tough
5. I am satisfied in the Lord alone
6. Im persecuted but i have support

Now isnt that interesting.
The reason i live is no longer because i am alive
but rather because He chose to resurrect me from the dead.( literally and spiritually)
+ more than once ( HOW COOL IS THAT)
Hey you know what i say
the past which was so boring, though i wasted time, im glad i have my Father with me now
I am now living for the right reasons. Are you?
It doesnt take much to be radical.
Its just a prayer away.

Woops, looks like my time expired
Later......

2007-07-08T06:35:00.000-07:00

Xup man
Here I am with Him by my side
I gotta say its been kinda fun and its gonna be more fun now
Lets see gotta my chinese oral + Bio C4 tomorrow
Please pray
Anyway I want to thank pastor Daniel and sister Wanping for the effort they made in organising this bible study. Cause from pastor Daniel's side. IT ROCKS

I gotta another challenge to keep up
You guys and gals can join me if you want
In this super negative world, be the positive one in your school, family, friends, sometimes church to be frank.

Thats why im gonna be the positive one, cause Christians arent suppose to be average. Its too boring, hahahaha.
With my buddy Jesus, its wayyy more fun to be on the good side and wayyy more interesting
To all you Christians out there, if theres anything problems you have, you can talk it out with the leaders, pastors, or if you're not comfortable. You can talk to me, cause Im a good listener hahaha

We're with you all the wayyy man.
The End is near, so lets do our best to be the best that the Lord wants us to be.

I encourage you to follow us,
Though im weak and got lots of flaws,
Neither am i a good speaker, or good in anything much, but
Follow Him and follow me, causes thats the us we are
Jesus is the way, and im going that way,
Come and join me if you want
Your choice.
Its time to be radical, radical for the Lord

2007-06-27T08:21:00.000-07:00

Xup man
Its super hard being at this level, i tell ya
I get attacked often and my body is super weak now
I could easily collapsed any moment
Kinda stinks.
But you know what, if by this i become closer to the Lord God ALMIGHTY JESUS CHRIST
Then all the more am i glad that i am closer.
You guys should be ashamed of yourselves
What is your kind of pressure when you have yet to face mind,
If you think you're parental objection, school bullying, too much homework, homework too hard, no friends, ya da ya da ya da, and the list goes on
Be silent, you have no cause to weep
Not unless you go through every single one of them everyday + weak body, easy mental body additional with recovering immune system
Yet look at job from the bible
He had it worse that all you little whinners
I ought to slap you all hard on the face for complaining
Sheesh
Wake up and smell the roses, listen to His will
and all will bold well.
Then when you suffer or not, you will know that what you're doing is what is best for you

Knock Knock
Who's there
Bryan
Bryan who?
Open the door first
PUCK@@!!!
You're late
No answer.......

Hey knights, i hope to see you at the prayer meeting tomorrow
ALL of you, including the young ones
No excuses man
Later........

2007-06-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

Xup man
Its nearly the end of my hols so i just have a few words to speak

Even though what may come my way
As long as i am still alive
I will never cease to praise the Lord with all that i got
Regardless of my condition, regardless of the my surroundings
The Lord deserves the best and by no means will i cut my standards

Later.....

2007-06-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

Xup man
You know not too long ago, i had a dream about the future when i got a child to take care of
Hoo boy, tis was super hard
Driving cars, crying, feeding + taking care of the rest of the kids.
Aw man, its hard work
I tell ya. You know you guys and gals arent making it easier for me.
I know its hard to keep the faith and hard to keep your word
But its worth it, trust me.
My Father/ The Lord sees it
He knows, and tells me if i ask.
You know even leaders, i tell you no one you is having a nice holiday.
You wanna know why? you havent earned it yet.
The hols in heaven and there is no shortcut
You people working should know that you cant suddenly in the middle of the job run off to go to hotel and party. You got keep working until you're finished then you're paid right?
So is this life, you gotta face hardships, then you can receive the reward in heaven.
And it'll feel way more satisfying than anything.

Anyway this little job i got taking care of you guys and gals, including adults,children, women, and kids. Every little one, is the sheep of my Lord, and you people are my responsibility. If He's hurt, im hurt, He's happy im happy.
So stop complaining, i've been through what you are suffering with the Lord many times before. How? I was one of the worst kind of person anyone did. Nearly broke the 10 commandments, hurt my Lord real bad. For that i am throughly ashamed, but we will be here to help you.
Its only a prayer away to the Lord.
Pray to me, i come give ya a wack on your head for being dumb
Pray for me can, but not to me.

Get ready for The BOSS Lord God Almighty Jesus Christ is coming soon
Be on your guard.
You got anything bad, come find us
Later.........

2007-06-18T08:25:00.001-07:00

Xup man
You know many people have this kind of mentality of life
Born->School->Gradulate->Girlfriend->Sex->Wife->More sex->Die
You know thats the dumbest thing that i seen and know
I may have had that kind of mentality once, but its gone now. Thats for sure
If Einstein thought of it, he would have brought shame to the himself and his reputation of the word genius.
Its very funny how many scientists may have pHds, Master degree, speciality, skills and knowledge. But yet they do fall into the so called "circle of life"
Well i find it very dumb and disturbing that many people cannot see whats waiting for them
They do not plan ahead but what they do in their lifetime

Yeah sure i know some of you argue,
You were here to do good deeds,you were here to make a world record, you're here to have lots of sex and women.
I find it all disgusting, and i dont even need to participate to know.
You fools, even if you had all the knowledge in the world, you still wouldnt understand.

I tell you one thing. I am not here to find pleasure in the world. Neither am i here to work my butt of studying and earning money. Nor am i here to do good deeds. I was born not in a rich but just middle class family and may have been foolish in the past, but now i am ashamed of it.

If i stored up worldly treasure, it would be useless to me later. Rather than lose my soul for no reason, i rather store it up in heaven

Matthew 6:19-20
Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, wher moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal
Matthew 6:19-20

Some of you may say o sure, i do good deeds, i got moral living. I'm from this religion. You know what, it only amounts up to nothing but rags.

Isaiah 64: 6
All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf and like the wind our sins sweep us away.
Isaiah 64:6

Dont tell me you got more that one life, thats plain rubbish. There's no second chance. Anyone who tells you they were this or that in other lifetimes. Rubbish, plain rubbish. Do not be deceived, my Father can easily see who you really are. You are either blinded or want to pull others along with you. We can see very clearly. I know some of you put up and act, just so that others may see. Some of join along because others are doing it and you want to fit in. In return you get the same reward as they do.
Tell me now, are you influenced by your past experiences that you can never let go and try to make others experience the same thing as you.
Are you trying to fit in with others who do whats is stupid?
Or are you just plain lost it.
Anyone who gives up life, gives up the Lord.

John 14:6
Jesus said: " I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.
John 14:6
Another thing that is really dumb. Throwing away life, you think its some kind of jokes. It goes out to everyone who likes to cut themselves, to be sucidal and hates their life. You think its some kind of joy ride, well time to wake up. You may feel the world is aganist you, you got nothing left, nobody loves you, you got no friends, everything is wrong. I tell you people now wake up and stop complaining.
1. You got friends, even if its not in the world, i will and the Lord will. Though sometimes i cannot be there always to support you. My Father the Lord Jesus Christ can( note this is not some stupid gimmick not is the blasphemous brazillian guy) always be there for you till the end of time. He'll be there when your sad when you're happy and even when you hate Him. He still loves you after that. You may think its funny but its not.

One more thing to clear before moving on. Jesus Christ is the Lord of all Lords and King of all kings who came down 2007 years ago from now(to be exact) to die for all our sins and went back to heaven. He is coming and soon. He is not some funny human who is on earth now. Anyone who claims to be is in danger of hellfire. For thats the price of blasphemy.

Dont be fooled by the world, for the world will only support you then turn their backs again you. If you lust after power, i say you're stupid. Whats more powerful and more satisfactory than having a relationship with highest authority, the ultima Creator of heaven and earth, who saw you as you grow up.

I tell you now, no amount of drugs, sex, women, men, food, friends will ever make you satisfied. I can assure you of it.

Now to the final part, i find people who say you understand until you try it. Thats the most wasteful amount of breath and words a ludicrous person will use. I tell you i need not have sex before marriage to tell you its wrong. Neither do i have to die to tell you what happens next. You wanna know why? Not because im smart, not because im wise, not because im crazy, neither because i full of knowledge. Its because He knows and tells me. You just gotta speak to Him and He will tell you. The meaning of life? Simple. To worship the Creator all your life. This doesnt mean bowing, singing, fanning all those funny thoughts you imagine of.
You know one thing, my studying , going toliet, speaking, i am worshipping. Why?
I give all to the Lord, worship is about lifestyle man not just doing all sorts of funny stuff.
I dont need to do get on my knees and beg. But i do it because i want to.

As people have a passion for sports, music, women, and yah da yah da. My dream and passion is to spend time with Lord. And i'll do it even if He didnt tell me( though i may forget sometimes) but He still reminds me,forgives me and just play with me.

Think about it, its only a prayer away.
By the way, prayer doesnt mean go ambababbambambambambibasosdkao with all kinds of funny words with thou, thee, dum whatever. You can speak like you normally do. Like for me, i go xup man, what up Lord. Just be serious and sincere thats be ok. You have to mean what you say, but the style, you need not be formal if you dont want to. Just listen.
If you got waiting problems, I waited 15 years to hear His voice. So dont complain

Later.........

2007-06-16T09:04:00.000-07:00

Xup man
I tell you the truth, no one can understand except the Lord
regardless of who i speak to, yet if you ask i will tell all that the Lord allows me to tell
If even my own parents cant recognise me or even understand me,
how can they help me
I tell them in plain fact and simple as possible but yet it doesnt work
I tell you all the truth, unless you can understand the Lord, you cannot understand me

When i told my friends a part of me, they could not understand. They were James, Ian and Jiehau. A few of my treasures that i keep with me.
I tell you, all the treasures of the world would i give them up unless the Lord tells me to.
The devil is here to ruin the world while the Lord is here to save you all
During todays discipleship, I learned many things, though many do not know.
I gotta thank my Father for this, for without Him, nothing would have been accomplished.

I wander across the world and have found none who accepts me for who i am.
My parents, my friends, my associates, my seniors, my juniors. None but the Lord has accepted me.
As i opened up, many call me crazy or stare at me with disbelief, but that i do expect. Cause its just human nature.
A main feature i realise is that humans are wrong and only the Lord is right. I realised that from the start of my life, the Lord has been testing me and training me. For that i am glad, for in me I find happiness.
You know many people find that what they like most is money, fame, wealth, sports, bands, music and the list so on. I tried nearly all out during my life. And i have found that my favourite hobby is just being with the Lord.
I tell you in my Father's house, i feel like im on holiday. Travelling round the world has its few benefits but it leads me to dissatisfaction. Only in the Lord i am full. And thats the plain truth

I just live with Him, not just the Master and servant mood all the time, but rather like a buddy buddy. I speak, He speaks, just like conversing with anyone.
As I fulfill what He wants to do, i know that it benefits me and those around me + HIM. WOooooHOOHooohohoho

One more thing now
Later.......

2007-06-14T07:35:00.000-07:00

As a child of my Father Jesus
I am completely aganist this kind of disreputable behavior
I really dislike people who come in the name of the Lord but are not from Him
This is complete blasphemy and hearesy
This is the worst nonsense i have
If i am called to go there i will personally stop it if my Father allows it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VvElky4Qwe4&NR=1

Go check this out
Interview with the false god and the beast 666

I tell you all including non Christians as well
This is junk, the worst kind of behavior on earth that is ever shown
Coming in the name of the Lord and falsely claiming to be Him
I really dislike with all of heart and soul this kind of people
Do not ever be fooled and follow
I warn you now, anyone who follows the beast will not receive salvation
It is said that all who follow the beast will follow it to its death
James 4:4
You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with teh world is hatred toward God? Anyone who is a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.
James 4:4

Anyone who is aganist the Lord is against me, and i will stand with all that the Lord provides aganist this people. Whoever is an enemy of the Lord is my enemy as well.

Later.........

2007-06-12T01:58:00.001-07:00

Xup man
Its really irritating when i see people speak of things that the Lord hates
Speaking of homosexuality, gossip, worldly stuff
It hurts me greatly as it hurts my Father
You know i wont stand for this anymore
Its my time now, and i wont let this occur anywhere in my vincinity regardless of who it may be
It does not matter a christian or not, girl or boy, president or roadsweeper
The answer is still NO

Now my time starts, its gonna be a whole lot different i assure you
And dont worry too much that i will change to a monster or your so called " robot"
I'll still be the same funny and fun guy but maybe a bit with the fun and the funny
While adding in a little serious and strict.

Its time i am able to use all that He gives me
In sports, studies, and social
Yay me

Now about the current events
Swim be on sunday 2pm
after tuition, good day to swim
As for shrek 3, i should be watching it soon
Give ya all a call when i do
And i tell ya all, watching it with friends and watching it with Bryan is 2 whole different things
well maybe, unless i become quiet then TOO BAD
hahahahahahahaha

Still there is still one unfotunate thing now'
I find that tv, games, com, books, stories mean nothing to me
"_"

Later..........