Revival of the times, bring the explosion yo. Sync the heart, mind, soul with the Jesus Heartbeat yo

I feel so depressed
Everything is so out of control
Mouth shut, Studies haywire, Ccas in the drain
Its so unfair now
When i fall down and shatter no one picks me up
sooner or later my heart breaks like glass and burns off thr ground
Out of the flingling wake in the night my howls bound through the sky
such pain and agony my body screams rejection
Words fall out to the worst of the worst
Strength wit and sanity breaks into hysterical shards of crystal
Where is the real me now?
Out in the darkness i slowly pick myself up
realizing that no one is eternal by my side
I grab hold of my Lord's hand and pull myself up
Out of the darkness a torch is lit
In the shining flame comes out a phoenix
with armour of God
Helmet of salvation and the breastplate of righteousness
Shield of Faith and the Sword of the Word of God
Belt of truth and Shoes of the gospel
No longer shall i stay hold to lies and dishonesty
Away from the scondrels and scallywags
This day forth the flame shall rise
No longer losing or the same
Phoenix rising to the air
Flame reborn
Acadamics shall never be the same
No Longer a paper will i fail
No longer shall this lips fail me
nor the arms that weaken my strength
Apologies to debrah and raphel
Relying on none
I never want to let anyone carve my future
My future is mine to keep
I belong to none but myself

Song mood: Death
May founder's day pass faster than the blink of an eye

@1:27 AM

I am here today to post this
one of my friends have made me proud of her
of her steel willed gentle heart with kindness filled to the brim
Her name is Esther 17 from my school and im proud to say that she is my friend
she has done something very honorable by helping out a 72 year old man at holland v when he had a heart attack, she gave him cpr
For that i say is truly admirable
I acknowledge you as one of the most honorable and courageous person i've met
THREE CHEERS for Esther

@6:22 AM

the meaning of life
if i told you would you believe?
even if i gave you the answer in your face you would not accept it
continue your search for what? the answer is so simple yet you would not accept it
those who accept it are truly blessed with eyes and whoever believes it is blessed with ears whoever receives is blessed with wisdom
In the bible
Jesus said: you have eyes yet you are blind, you have ears but you would not hear how then would you believe
I tell you now
the meaning of life is to live to worship and honor God,Holy Ghost and Jesus
This is the meaning of life. If you truly have wisdom you would accept this and believe in it

back to school
Work load is tough and 2 tests are coming up
way much
anyway i'll be quite bz these 2 weeks so i wont be bloggin much k?
later....

@7:31 AM

Today was sweet
choir performance then dance it was so fun
but i also realized
I do not have something others have
I have lost the fragments of the child
My heart is incomplete
This few days are stressful
many things are not stable
so i may be a little quiet these few days
exams coming up
wont be blogging till they are over

@7:46 AM

heres a few words to say
many say that they are in control of their emotions
but are they really?
can they control love and hate
sadness and happiness
anger and hatred?
Those who control who they hate and who they like are really strong
they will never let it affect them
it will pass and go
if they are able to control
they will be able to control their tongue and say the right things at the right time
They would know how to hold back their strength and stop their violence
Such are the great people among us
As for me i would want to be able to have this ablilty until then i will keep learning
Song mood: Catch your wave

@1:41 AM

Today i studied super hard like the time i had for my bio and physics test
its like a cliche and im like gettin a little nervous
then i realized
why did i come to this school?
It hit me then
I came out of fairfield to show every1 that i aint no shurb or grass in a field
so i wont be affected the much
my goals are clear now
I will study harder
practice harder
play harder and do my best

@5:28 AM

A few different types of topics before i slp
. Girls are not just some tool to keep you from being lonely. They are equal to us men as well. If you plan to win their hearts, it will not work(trust me on this) Things will occur naturally as time passes by. If you are sincere in what you say, everything will be alright. But if you have motives and think of ways t0 get them near you. It wont work and everything will turn wrong. Whatever you do you must do it sincerely, do not wear a mask cause eventually, people will find out about your true self. If you choose to show your true self, if its naturally nice and pure people will naturally be friendly to you but if its vulgar and bad, you must 1st find out what is wrong and correct yourself to a better state.

. Today when sylv said that bgr was wrong i oppose that statement. Bgr can have to ways. One is to have it for selfish desires which i think sylv is opposing( i agree to a certain extent with that) The other reason is increase your relationship with the other person due to certain emotions that we have. Having a bgr is not a sin but having it for the wrong reasons is.

Back to todays events
Today had floorball but lost quite badly3:1
though some of my team werent cooperative, its my fault for overlooking that and not taking the necessary actions. Also got injured in my stomache and leg due to that. After that i went to the acjc funerorama. I had quite a good time there, met jiayi,darren,melinda,iain,my cous laura and jon. I though i'll take a nice stroll in the fun fair to relax myself from the week so yeah. I managed to win quite a number of stuff but i had not much use for it so when i went to church i gave to my church members and some of my other friends, after all, what you i be able to do with sweets,bombags,teddy bears,keychains. After that i had a fun time in church playing with my pals. But after that i had to go home and study till my tests are over. Oh ya almost forgot, 2 new asterix and obelixs books are out, i managed to read 1 of them during my free time, the other i could not due to the lack of time.

Song mood: Did you feel the mountains tremble?

And unfortunately i now i have a rival.....watch it, you aint getting far. If you want to play it this way, im gonna trash you flat with the next move

@7:55 AM

Unlock the the strengths that are sealed
Unlock the flaming fury that burns bright within
I am more than what you think
Dont say you know me when you've seen 5%
Cause if you knew me
you would ask me why i am doing so badly these days
You would ask me why didnt i become the top
and why i chose to quit a few stuff
Life is a more than a game of chess
We will study we will play
but if its gets out of hand, there will be consequences
so study hard but not extream
and play much but not chaos
so that it will be balanced

Song mood: My uncompleted song
I wanna hug you kiss you hold you everyday
I wanna love you in a different way
But cant you see my feelings now

@6:36 AM

Happy belated valentine's day
sorry i didnt post this earlier
My wish for this year is to unlock my potential
and if possible find someone who will be able to help me out acadmically and and for my cca
My song mood: I'll be there for you

@6:20 AM

Today was fun, i had a few urges to change to my other personality but it never worked
like when something you want to work, it doesnt work
like when you want to study hard, you become a guitarist
when you want to sing, you dance
when you want to be happy, lots of sad stuff happen
Things hardly work out properly
you dont know the never ending sadness i have
even though the happiness is on the outside
i feel happy yet so sad
Getting killed by my parents i feel sick and feel like spiting out blood
today i received and gave lots of presents
too bad i didnt had my other personality to say the rest of the words
how unlucky can that be
today dedicated a song to my friends yeah
though i gotta say im still not too used to the school yet
its still quite fun
Sometimes i had to think about which to be scholar, cassanova
its like so hard to choose
like people studies in the end i end up dead in both regions
My acadamics didnt do so well i guess i acted like a fool these few days
time to focus, valentine's day is over and tests are coming up
i must achieve my goal through whatever it takes
Im sorry but i have to switch to one of my other personalities already it really has to be done to score lots of points
Im gonna focus back onto choir,floorball,badminton, God and guitar
Im sorry for my physics,chem,bio and a maths
I promise to get at least 99% next time
cant let tom become the scholar that i want
Neither shall i let anyone take the leadership of my dream
Etiquette and Courtesty
Maturity and Wit
Strength and Intelligence
Charm and speed
What i want
What i do
shall become what i am
I really want to become not for arrogance or pride but for myself and my dream

@5:33 AM

How would you feel the pain i felt
your words stung deep to my heart
causing part of it to be blown off
as what i am now is due to you
my past has awakened
so shall you see
the real me
Playing the hapless joker
childish kid
broke that dream you did
so what you see will be the man and me
Tomorrow will not be the same
Shy is of the old
Quiet is ancient
Childish jokes and pranks dissappeared into the never ending sky
Flown off the phoenix has
soaring to the sky

@3:24 AM

why does people try and make life hard for me
I cant be always there when you all jump of the building
i really want to know why you people keep thinking of sucide
I cant always be at the bottom to catch you
You all stop thinking of it
do you know how much this affects me even when my exams are coming
WAKE UP
Have you thought about this in the 1st place?
YOU ALL JUST JUMP DOWN BECAUSE SOME GUY DUMPED YOU
OR FAILED AT SOMETHING
Cant you think that there are also t others out there that you can try again
Stop making your mistakes
Dont tell me that you want me to take you and tie you up in a chair and lock u in a closet coz that aint gonna happen
so stop your foolish dreams and wake up
you are all still young and you all dont need to throw your life away
dont you know how your friends and especially jesus will feel
Stand up and start again
thats my final word

@1:03 AM

i think i lost the meaning fo happiness
I tried to sing with joy but never happened
I dont know why but i cant sing properly
Im a lost for words now
Darn
I gotta focus more on God and studies
yeah'_'
Song mood: So sick
Today i learned a new song right here waiting
and i will be right here waiting keeping myself free till i find happiness
and 1 more thing

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
WANXIN
&
JAMES

today was ok i guess. had fun yeah. Preparing for the bio so later........

@6:47 AM

hi
its been quite eventful
Today came to school, learnt a very important lesson that words can actually hurt more than sticks and stones. Yeah its true, im normally hurt more by words rather than action. Today i got insulted and felt quite sad. A brief momment to recognise my priorities, i realized i've been slacking behind and decieded to study even harder to catch up to achieve my dream. I also had quite a nice chat with my friends like nemo,feng yi, penny,esther and so on...it reminded me that my friends are the gems of my tresure chest, irreplacable and their worth cannot be calculated as they are priceless. Today also had my chem test though i made a few mistakes i hope i might do well for my chem as it is important in my future career. Today im also catching up on my homework and planning for feb 14. Today at guitar class, i was taught how to do solo performances and duet like 1 will play rhythmn and other will play solo. Although i hardly listen to the blues, i find it quite nice to express yourself. Im more of towards playing christian music and alternate rock.

Song mood: Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

After a maths class, i had a sharp pain ln my legs like my legs were frozen solid and it is lasting up to now. Also i suddenly have a little gastric in my stomach..ow. Today my father also slipped and injured his legs. how unlucky can this day be, but i'll still praise the Lord for the good things he blessed me with such as my friends. Today i wasnt that nice in the morning and i apologise to chris and david. SORRY!!!im really sorry for not being nice. and right now im doing my hw
so later......

@7:24 AM

yo
im quite happy now.
for some reason i feel very happy when im among christians and my friends
i dont know why but when i look at any of their faces, it just makes me smile
My studies are like deterioating so im gonna put in an extra effort to do better
Next tues im still planning on what im gonna do so im stump now. Should i like come out with something original or should i like stick to the same and like who should i give to? its like i do not know yet. I pray that the Lord will help for this. Today public speaking was quite intresting, i managed to pick up a few points but im not sure whether i can apply it yet. Sorry but im not that confident yet. i gotta finish up my homework. oh ya i also have to make up for my social mistakes sorry about that. I'll try harder.

Song mood: Now that you're near

@7:06 AM

this is the second post of words of wisdom
1.There are many desires in the human nature, you should be obessed with getting it, but the hardwork you put in and if it the Lord will grant you, then you will get it

2. No point slacking around and waiting for things to happen, you will just miss those opptunities, Do your best in everything, if you dont want to do for yourself or for someone, do it for the Lord

3. The Lord grants people wishes if they deserve it and its for good, like eg.dont ask to have someone to fall madly in love with you or to punish someone because they did you wrong that is not the correct way. Instead ask the Lord to help them make up for their mistakes or ask for more friends. that way the Lord may grant you the wishes.
---------------------------------------thats all i have to say now--------------------------------

Today i watched a nice movie
its called "the devil"
i know the name sounds evil,twisted and horrible
but the show is nice because it has a good message and its also very funny
It is about 1 guy who had lots of desires and sold his soul to the devil. the devil then granted him 7 wishes but in the end he chose to break the deal with the devil and after lots of trials, he broke free
its so nice that i would rate it 3.7 out of 5
i might not be able to blog for a few days but dont forget to tag

@6:45 AM

yo
today was quite intresting
My floorball coach didnt come so we had free games
my teamates werent that good as those old floorball players but we won them 8:7
it was totally unexpected
then later my cell group came over
i had so much fun with them
We played with my gutiar then played ps2 also we played uno
lol
although my controller aint that good it at least can move
lol
After that we had an western lunch
then we went to kenneth house
although he led us in circles
and we wasted a lot of time
i had fun playing tai ti with them
i also had a chance to look at his magic books and chord books
too bad i couldnt find the chords for always and forever and hero
After that we went to xin long's house
deb,kenneth,kong an and i played need for speed wanted on xin long's com
it was quite fun but most of us ended up last due to xin long's underhandled car
I gotta remember that when i want to race i gotta call them to come along.After that went to church, praise and worship was uber fun
i saw lots of my friends there

The only time that people see my feelings is when they see my esaays

Song mood: Always and forever

@4:20 AM

yo blog time
Let me just say hi to all those who came to my blog
today was so nice
I learned a new song in guitar class
but the name was totally unpronucable for me
some kind of french name but it was so nice
it was like from the movie anastasia
Then after that went to have a chat with my friends
then played a bit of badminton
man my skills are like so out of date
I need to build more muscle into my arms
gotta rmb to do that when im free
then after that rushed off to plaza
Bought a new book volume 15 of the series
then went for accoustic guitar class
the teach mr goh showed me a new way of playing bm7
it was like changing em to bm7(modern 1)
the new sound was so much nicer than the old one
but i still havent got the specific detail.
Sigh i still do not know what to play for valentine day. All my songs are so not romantic except maybe for those like ur beautiful,lovely eyes and more than words
Hey what songs do ya all like???
Reply on tag board and i'll try to spend some time practicing it for you
Yeah
today im preparing for the bio proj, finishing my physics and bio work. and preparing for my bio and physics test. My maths made a few careless mistakes sigh...got punishment for that and also today the new song, my chem teach very strict. anything wrong i got wacked...lol ow
My song mood for today is : colledge kid
May all of you who come here be blessed
yeah
later.........

@6:32 AM